CONFESSIONS OF A PERILOUS MIND

closeness.

2007-06-10T23:45:00.000-07:00

if something happened ONCE, it will NEVER happen again. but if it happened TWICE, it will SURELY happen again for the third, fourth, fifth... time.

i got this over thurr. and! i soooo AGREE!! soo true.
uhm. evident in some of my. uhh, personal cases. *grins*

im happy that..
.....

internship.

2007-06-02T09:09:00.000-07:00

pieces of information from my irksome internship:

place where i was assigned: MERCURY DRUG robinson's place balibago

my usual sched: 10am-8pm

what i've done so far:
*mag-paste ng mga Rx containers.
*maglinis ng mga bote.
*magmemorize slash pag-aralan ang generic name, brand name, dosage, indication at company ng 1oo plus na gamot.
*at pinag-quiz after.
*tumunganga.
*gumawa ng sarili kong crossword puzzle at sodoku.
*magreklamo at magsabi-sabi.

**im sooo drained. if i only knew everything since the very beginning, i might not be complaining now. please save me from this desolation. :c

s.t.u.f.f.

2007-05-26T05:03:00.000-07:00

in the midst of school irascibility referred to as the internship and the 7am-5pm schedule with 1 hour break, i have something to think likely.

pics of me and friends. lots of these cutees.
bags. bags. and did i mention bags?
pink stool boxes. omg. like i can't wait to have these pretties.
bedsheets and stuff. hehe.
uhh. bsta mga stuff.

as much as i would like to post everything, i will just limit it to 5. hehe. =P
a million thanks mom. =) loveyou.

argh

2007-05-25T04:46:00.000-07:00

DAPAT TALAGA DI NA PINUPUNTAHAN YUNG SITE NA YUN!! EVER!! sigh..

PRETEND THAT I SAW NOTHING..

b.s. pharmasuxx

2007-05-23T04:51:00.000-07:00

first of all. RED means ANGER.

im starting to soooo hate my course. it's a silent killer. it's more of a worst nightmare than a dream i thought i would be living to life. everybody's excited to go to internship. who's not anyway? but! who would want a day stucked in a drugstore with ludicrous looking people with you making your life burn in hell. doing nothing for 8 hours or so. argh. does this mean that i need a shifting form?? haha. atleast. PT has a vacation. PTs earn the highest salary in the medical field. PTs uniform is the green one. wtf?! hehe. i was already chilled. digestion nalang sa mga pangyayari. sigh.

ah basta! pharma! GIVE ME SOMETHING TO LOOK AHEAD.

thnks fr th mmrs.

2007-05-20T07:49:00.000-07:00

way back when stupidity is me.

i hate being put in this position. im forcing myself to let go of the person that i need in my life. he's the only thing that makes sense, but at the same time the one thing that complicates me. i know that im better off without him, yet i feel empty whenever i try to let go. but i guess emptiness is better than constant hurt.

f.r.i.e.n.d.s.

2007-05-15T19:07:00.000-07:00

a very impeccable shot courtesy of pamela's furn. get it?? get it??
and *I LOVE IT* hehe.
well, definitely! i was the prettiest. =)

taking on a BIG responsibility.

2007-05-09T09:19:00.000-07:00

"naiintindihan ko yung fear mong yun pero di mo dapat iniisip masyado kasi you were placed sa service na yan to please God alone.. Ikaw ang pinili kong papalit sa akin simply because you have the heart.. sobrang nakikita ko kasi sarili ko sayo at sabi nga ni kuya james e ikaw ang better nica at ikaw ang makakapag-fill ng mga flaws ko nung ako pa ang senior sister.. everytime you need the encouragement na hinahanap mo eh isang text away lang kami ni tet.. wag kang maging hesitant to us.. =)"
-ate nica

whew. the conversation we had minutes ago threw me away like hell. hello ces?? you'll gonna be SOMEBODY and not just ANYBODY in that high station you gained which should be more of a priviledge and less of a burden. in terms of leading such a community nearer to Him, i SHOULD say that i'm so amateurish that I might be leading them into a devastation. well, i should believe in what I can do as told by ate nica coz i won't be given such if He knows that I can't handle it. ayt?! *sigh* so, right now. i'm kinda excited for what's in store for me. hhmmnn. campus team from Manila and discovery camp. i'll get to meet more people. whom I wish I could befriend pronto. yeah. kaya yan ces! hehe. =) pray for me people.

11 months and counting.
kaluguran daka. balu mu na ta.
mmuua!

perfection won't hurt.

2007-05-05T03:18:00.000-07:00

>i love the color BLACK.

>i soo love spidey.

>loved the bag sooo much! i saw voody again. *smiles big*

>i love hello panda and the free sticker!

>fnh will always be present. hate the person. haha.

>alice and kati as living witnesses.

>spent nothing. i am not kinda ready for it.

for a very wonderful day. THANK YOU!!!

mee.

2007-05-01T00:35:00.000-07:00

immigration.

2007-04-28T23:51:00.000-07:00

sunday afternoon and we went to apup's office to fix some stuff. i don't know why i went there with them. he told me lan nman that there are some drastic changes sa office niya compared 2-3 years ago? not quite sure of that. so, i took some stupid pics. hehe.

stamp. yup. francisco doria he is. hehe.
another.
tank tops and slippers?? plus shorts?? the hell??
pabungad.
isa pa.
his "separate" office.
the outside thingy.
feeling immigration employee

toti

2007-04-16T05:55:00.000-07:00

SHE

Charles Aznavour

She

May be the face I can't forget

A trace of pleasure or regret

May be my treasure or the price I have to pay

She may be the song that summer sings

May be the chill that autumn brings

May be a hundred tearful things

Within the measure of the day.

She

May be the beauty or the beast

May be the famine or the feast

May turn each day into heaven or a hell

She may be the mirror of my dreams

A smile reflected in a stream

She may not be what she may seem

Inside a shell
She who always seems so happy in a crowd

Whose eyes can be so private and so proud

No one's allowed to see them when they cry

She may be the love that can and hope to last

May come to me from shadows of the past

That I remember till the day I die
She May be the reason I survive

The why and where for I'm alive

The one I'll care for through the rough and rainy years

I'll take her laughter and her tears

And make them all my souvenirs

For where she goes I got to be

The meaning of my life is
She, she, she

If I never had you I wouldn't know what it's like to be loved.

If I never had you I would never know what it's like to be happy.

If I never had you I would die.

I love you.

*hold my hand and don't let go*

2007-04-12T04:14:00.000-07:00

yea. pae, we are now officially enrolled. sucked. *sigh* i want my summer vacation. *sob*
what are these freaks doin?? *big grin* haha. screamin and saying "hhhiiiii!!!" to the person dun sa tollgate. hehe. and nung drive thru sa jollibee. craazzyyy!!!!

tok and i. haha. we were watchin well, ayan. spongebob squarepants! wee.
that was made by ate dhess and me. tiramisu. yuum. in less than 24 hours, that was ubos.
a gasoline boy named "toy". gox and i fancied his name and so it goes. haha.
sta maria church. holy week setting. =P
those were stuff from our trip yesti. dicey, wee-wee and a small toy that i won. wee.

noel, ces, joe. ice skating?? nah. si noel lan. hehe. =P
who knows how to skate?? answer: si noel lan tlga.
yey. sweet goodbye NSTP-CWTS. that is a care bear wobbling pen given to me by a classmate. *aww* i was touched. thanks much iLa!
i want that snickers almond and it took me hours before tadaah!

finally! he gave up. wee. lurved it. bigtime.

sad part.

2007-04-05T05:50:00.000-07:00

yeah. i've got good news for you. call this great or whatsoever. i'm not really liking it that much. who likes it anyway? let's just indirectly say that we're moving. well, it's actually up to standard but wanna know where? in the very hushed town of capas tarlac. read that right. sigh. apup is not getting any younger and that means no work for him anymore. if i could just control everything of course i would prefer to stay here. duh? i was here since i was born and you will take that 17 years away from me? what could be worst than that? like do i have a choice? if i could just get all the money from the banks and build ourselves a home. haha. dream on! he even told me that maybe i could just stay in a dorm? shocks. imagine me? dorm? will i be able to live my life then? i can't even imagine! hell yeah! i dunno. i will still be hoping for the best and wish that everything is just a dream. is this one of life's challenges? please. sigh. i love my life now.

untitled.

2007-04-04T00:28:00.000-07:00

cute pic.

i'm currently running out of words and stories to tell and to blog for the whole world to know. is it because of the season? maybe. coz i have, well, we all have this tv-net-sleep-eat routine. i want that skirt i saw somewhere. and that top i also saw somewhere. sigh. prudence ces. people will be spending they're summer on interesting places. beach. name it. me? i will be spending it on IT-505 and in mercury or manson drug. i'm not bitter over my unique summer escapades. i dunno. i'm just so damn bored.

greetings!

hi joe and fhatz! ok na yung subic? can't wait. sana makasama yung mga rare people. hehe. make my summer atleast worth it. loveyou biatches.

hi pamela! don't forget my pasalubong. size 9. i dunno what these people are telling bout me but i'm innocent! swear! hehe.

hi solo! pasalubong din. basta mga cute pink stuff. hehe. ingat! china boy? hehe.

hi mr wil! hows life? at ang kakiyak mong blog. huu.

hi guy10! hehe. prime boi. haha. =P

hi aling! inadd ko na si sherman sa friendster. yung kasing description nila parang "todo" e. hehe. miss danaka! musta na si rc? hehe.

hi momi! loveyou! :)

toti! hi. la lan. :))

may nakalimutan pa ba ko? hehe. kung meron man, hi guys! hehe.

-im out!

my freshman year.

2007-03-29T02:10:00.000-07:00

should i say ~~goodbye~~ freshman and hello sophomore? nah. hello summer muna. damn. i almost forget. we have a monday-friday class from 8am to 2pm. and that starts on april 16. hhmmnn. and after? hello drugstore internship. i'm fine with the rule of no using of cellphones. haha. don't ask me why.

my freshman year. (let's assume that i passed this school year.) my pharma friends already saw me cry, laugh, fall in and out of love, knew all my crushes (per college yan a. hehe.) and much more stuff bout me. haha. they knew all my secrets. my past. from my 5 lost cellphones up to present. the history of my everything and more. haha. i love you guys. i know we won't be missing each other. hello? like my vacation tayo? hehe. magkasawaan tayo sa mukha ng isa't-isa hanggang fourth year dude. haha. basta. RPH people i loveyou. wee.

my "break" starts today. break from everything. and i literally mean everything. sigh. anyway. since my break already started. imma say goodbye for now. and say hello to limewire. haha. cheerio.

over

2007-03-27T03:52:00.000-07:00

just when questions seemed endless it suddenly became clear. he came not to love me but to teach me to love then he walked away without any idea how much i've learned and how much it hurts.

sad noh? sigh.

toti

2007-03-26T03:07:00.000-07:00

para kay longganisa, baby, toti. all the sweetest endearments you can think of. wag lang honey. haha. i know this song is so 10 years ago pa. pero, i heard it over the radio and guess what?? yup. naalala kita. and every word fits so well. haha. loveyou!

For all those times you stood by me
For all the truth that you made me see
For all the joy you brought to my life
For all the wrong that you made right
For every dream you made come true
For all the love I found in you
I'll be forever thankful baby
You're the one who held me up
Never let me fall
You're the one who saw me through through it all

You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me

You gave me wings and made me fly
You touched my hand I could touch the sky
I lost my faith, you gave it back to me
You said no star was out of reach
You stood by me and I stood tall
I had your love I had it all
I'm grateful for each day you gave me
Maybe I don't know that much
But I know this much is true
I was blessed because I was loved by you

You were always there for me
The tender wind that carried me
A light in the dark shining your love into my life
You've been my inspiration
Through the lies you were the truth
My world is a better place because of you

I'm everything I am
Because you loved me

pixx.

2007-03-23T19:46:00.000-07:00

pharma's favorite teacher of all time! perfect! haha. waa. i'll be missin him. uber. *sniff*
future physical therapist. "daw". hanapin ang naiiba. hehe. reminds me of pamela ni harlan. haha. wallpaper and ptj. heart them both.o ung mga isip niyo ha? yea. wee.
wla lan. cute ung effect. hehe.
effect. hehe.
the PE boys. hahahaha!

vodka mudshake. that's the choco flavored vodka im making a fuss of into last night. haha. yum!
oh. i know you guys can't see it clearly but we're trying to show our nails. haha. pae's got that orange color cheese ring nail polish and mine is that starry starry effect. haha.
my bestfriend as of last week.
patima. pulube. "SINGLE" kuno.
our PE days. in CWTS uniform. sucked. haha.

masku.

2007-03-21T19:00:00.000-07:00

*inspirasyon para sa isang stressed week.

cnong kulang? hehe.

tj.

2007-03-20T21:24:00.000-07:00

it's hard to assume your position on somebody's life. you might be expecting too much. something far from reality. so learn to weigh the situation, know your stand and keep things in balance. coz the hardest to deal with is failure, and the hardest to endure is pain.

*nko. pae. alam ko kokontra ka nnman. ako? be nice. never. tsk.

suruts

2007-03-17T06:43:00.000-07:00

"SURUTS"

that was me catchin some z's. and that was suruts. epal. hehe.well, suruts was given by masku. it was fhatz's 15th birthday then. i was the one who collected the bread and i was also the one who bought it. so, idea ko nga na bigyan xa ng gnun. coz winnie the pooh is like barney, a stupid yellow bear like creature. hehe. bear ba xa? hehe. it was from dakki and we were expecting that big blue paper bag para di sana xa i-wrap, to my dismay, isang malaking plastic ang lalagyan. hehe. so, rush na xa and stuff. ni-wrap nalang xa ni ate dhess sa isang CHRISTMAS wrapper. that was feb. haha. years have passed and it's a superb feeling knowing that suruts have survived the ups and downs of life. (as if?) hehe. together with his? mom patimaa! so, one cold night of february, tito eiron, tito jap and tita ces went to visit patima. they saw suruts. with elation! and gladness. coz they saw suruts thriving. haha. there is this *touched* feeling.

eiron: o, buhay pa pala yan? =)

jap: onga fhatz. wow. touched naman kame.

ces: huh? bat ganyan na itsura niya? lumalabas na mga internal organs? ginagamit mo pa?

fhatz: *dying* why? she's laughing her heart out. haha. idagdag mo pa ang pag-request ni tito jap ng kape. hehe.

biglang nagblack-out. hoping that we won't feel suruts delicate skin. haha. basta. in brief, we love suruts. hehe. kinda? haha.

*this is the effect of too much fluid (cerebrospinal fluid?? haha) gouged out of my brain cells. hehe. *die anatomy, die logic, die chemistry, die filipino, die english.* waa.

fri.

2007-03-16T04:14:00.000-07:00

i know you people are dying to hear my story. pero i'm telling you, nako. b-o-r-i-n-g. and F-C. hehe. yeah. i'm talking about today. tj and i went to sm. can i like summarize everything using words and phrases nlang?? hehe. in order yan.

~f&h (he's favorite store of all time. nako.)
~ideal vision (super tagal. di naman pala siya precision.)
~great image (badtrip. ampanget ng napili kong pic. haha.)
~hypermarket (ponds pink & ponds antibac. advantage card. haha. super vaiin!)
~wade (ang belt. bow.)
~f&h ulet. (silip lang. hehe.)
~elianto (pink nail polish. haha. sobrang tagal ko ditooo.)

*monito monita na after. hehe. well, the earrings are nice. fine. haha. un na un. yoko na magkwentoo. hehe.

*waaaa. the template that i'm looking for is loooossstt!!! where the hell?? errr. it isn't a dream naman na i saw it coz pae could bear out to that. waaa. i want that sskkiin!!!

*shierlyn. kern. green day. kamikazee. haha. laugh trip. everytime it crossess my mind i can't help but llaauugghh!! haha. hahahahaha.

*epic movie is hilarious. highly recommended for those who have seen the flicks involved? hehe. *so hot* haha.

life complexities

2007-03-13T08:29:00.000-07:00

for someone who's not gettin things right. for someone who's not feelin reasonably fine. we all experience stumbling blocks. it's in the matter of looking on the right perspective. now i know why you act so darkly. i know it's there to teach us lessons. and! it'll pass away i know. but it's always as if teething troubles don't head off your way. how i wish you could see through things. GUSTO KONG IPAKITA SAYO ANG MUNDO!! hehe. well, sino ba ako? i'm just an option. your very pretty alternative. yeah. haha. kakahiya kanina. teka. i don't know the whole story either.

ewan. affected lan ako. sobra. and i'm concerned. hope you'll get better soon. hug?? *sigh*

err

2007-03-12T05:23:00.000-07:00

nako. nako. i have my own unsettled issues with him. kakainis! *sigh*

anyway. i need yer help guys. kindly help me naman choose my BEST picture that i could give to a friend. ayt?? yup. friend. *ang arte kasi* hehe. tell me IMMEDIATELY. ASAP. text me or whatever. aryt?? it's like a matter of life and death. hehe. *friend huh?* basta! i'm expecting a response from you guys. demanding? hehe. thankees. =)

CLICK HERE for the pictures. log-in nalang kayo. hehe.

~una sa lahat, di ako nag-aaral sa holy. lalo na sa SYSTEMS. at! hello?? pwede ba?? hindi ako NURSING!!!! hindi lahat ng nka-white uniform nnuurrssiinngg!! wwwaaaaa!!!

BEFORE I FALL IN LOVE
Coco Lee

My heart says we've got something real
Can I trust the way I feel
'Cause my heart's been fooled before
Am I just seeing what I want to see
Or is it true, could you really be

Chorus:
Someone to have and hold
With all my heart and soul
I need to know before I fall in love
Someone who'll stay around
Through all my ups and downs
Please tell me now
Before I fall in love

I'm at the point of no return
So afraid of getting burned
But I want to take a chance
Oh please give me a reason to believe
Say you're the one
That you'll always be

It's been so hard for me to give my heart away
But I would give my everything
Just to hear you say

*ouch*

~hayley bennett and hugh grant's way back into love was m'duffy. im lovin it. haha. i've been living with a shadow, lalalalalala.

fruis

2007-03-10T04:49:00.000-08:00

F-R-I-D-A-Y is the DAY!!!

*crossed fingers*

2007-03-10T02:49:00.000-08:00

TJ. with, yuh. the 2 gurls. no comment. hehe. got this from martin. woohoo.
eiron. eiron. haha. another photo taken candidly. haha. misu ccuubb! loveyou!Ü
C-A-M-P night. pae. gia.ces.
pharma 2A. kewlness.
if you could see me and the other girl next to that guy in black, wala lang. pareho kaming may kausap sa fone. haha.

~CAMP night was fun. *kinda* well, what made it pretty fun is coz of all the pictures and stuff. pero, the night itself? nah. we were waiting for the disco kaya. hmmn. so yun. that was yesterday. and yesterday was also so *kilig*. PTJ bought me a pair of earrings. yup. hahaha. pero he di pa niya binibigay. and he told me that he can't keep his eyes and hands off that earrings. haha. hhaaii. basta. i was looking for that perfect keychain for him dba? so let me kwento.

i went to angeles city!! hehe. no. around nepo siguro. basta dun. eh di i was looking for one. tingin. tingin. tingin. when this guy approached me and told me na "hi miss! friend kita sa friendster. naaalala mo ba ko?" and, i was like, "huh?? sorry, hindi eh" and he said "ah gnun ba? may kasama ka ba?" truth is, wala. pero i told him, "mm. meron e. nag-cr lang" then yun. "ah. ok." he left na. haha. nice meeting me daw. he is in HAU NSTP. ahahaha. di pa tapos. i was nearing national bookstore when he saw me nanaman. "o miss, asan kasama mo?" me- "ah, nasa national. sige ah, una nako." then, pumasok ako sa national ng wala sa oras. haha. i can sense na ne was outside making silip so what i did is tumabi ako dun sa guy na tumitingin ng book. then, kinausap ko yung guy. haha. i was asking him kung yun nalang ba yung copy nung book na hawak niya. haha. xmpre, para kahit pano, mukang kakilala ko yung guy. haha. so, nawala na si friendster guy. tas si guy na kinausap ko, kasama pala gf nia. hahahahaha. funny. hehe. i encountered such coz of looking for the best keychain. and i failed. haha. i'll be buying that one na from amblvd.

ang haba. hehe.

*happy 9th month*

looovveeyyoouu!!

t.j.

2007-03-08T05:47:00.000-08:00

i love my day. uber. like means and extremes bounded. wee. joe, eiron and i. haha. kahit sinusumpa nio ang pistachio. haha. and saw ciay and mike pa. hapee birthday pla miikkee. woohoo. *cheers* haha. siyempre, mawawala ba si PTJ (as requested) na bumubuo ng araw ko?? haha.

he asked me na if pwede tomorrow ko na sana siya sasamahan sa SM. kasi nga, he will not attend the CAMP night na "baduy" daw sa kanyang paningin. hehe. argh. i told him na pupunta ko. aaww. sayang. sayang. sayang. so yun, kelan kaya? waa. mamo-move nnmn. *sigh* and i saw the very PERFECT keychain for him. (xe he's asking me to buy one for him) it's like a MCR thing. my chemical romance. e i knew na he loved that band ng sobra. ya lan. it's too much. so i guess, pag talagang "this is it!" dun ko nlan xa bibilhin for him. haha. wee. den, sinumbong ko sknia yung 2 PT guys with annoying faces na may irritating looks on me. waa. xmpre? haha. bsta. *kilig* haha. so yun. and. for the 3rd time, i dreamt of him nanaman. it's getting "weirder". haha.

IRENE SUMANG! bsta ba wag mo kong sasalubungin, kundi babangain kita! haha. how dare you join me in that suckin videoke contest. huhu. i almost cried talaga. waa. hehe. at nakisama pa kayong lahat! waa. anyway, anyway, i can't wait to see the video presentations tomorrow. lalo na ung sa PT xmpre. heard that it was mgnda dw. let's see. haha. bagong album nnman ito sa multiply. hahaha. wee.

*bliss! bliss!*

yoo

2007-03-07T06:09:00.000-08:00

Myspace Layouts, Graphics and Glitter.

~i love them. tj and i love them. haha. nako. naalala ko lan. joe! i told you, di talaga siya photogenic. haha. pamatay naman in person wiweet. so, makikita mo na siya dun every m-w-f. yeah ryt. hehe. at ano ang binabalak mo haaah?? hehe. do you know someone named cj hizon. better tell me. haha.

*is it true that the first person you love is the last person you forget?? i guess.

Myspace Layouts, Graphics and Glitter.

~ehem. kung nakanino man ang aking dvd. ehem! *pae* ehem! *pae*. wanna cry. so i should watch it. hehe. aburi buri mu ing love me if you dare neh? haha. stupid movie.

*tired*
-she's giving me stupid things to think about.
-he's giving me unpredictable signs.

*sigh* life was never fair. it never was.

yea ryt.

2007-03-06T06:13:00.000-08:00

*oh and yeah. it's better if you say what you mean. and mean what you say. thank you coz you didn't change. haha. too shallow. pero, basta! i'm still sooo thinking of what's with us. *sniff* haha. and thank you for quite commenting on my "c-e-s lui-pio". changed it na. harlequin girl! haha.

*José Protacio Rizal Mercado y Alonso Realonda simply known as Jose Rizal, I HEART YOU. haha. you'll gonna be my life. my reason for living. haha. baduy! sweet summer. captivate me. haha. i'm soo bein insane.

*joe. the masku url is inaccesible e. nako. what's happening ba with all the b*tches? argh. miss you na. overnight tayo sa summer. hehe. sum1's place. hhmmnn..?? haha. loveyou!

*these are the moments when i ask myself why did i take up pharmacy?? shet. pamatay. at sa kamalas-malasan namin sa aming curriculum, kumusta namen kameee??? waa. huhu. *sigh* i want that 3rd year pharma uniform in sight. and in me.

uyi

2007-03-03T08:01:00.000-08:00

AUGUSTINE. lalo na M-A-S-K-U. overnight naman diyan.

pharma boys with nikki. pawandeep, clint, arvin, nikki and kua mark.
is the venue good for debuts? kasi if you happen to see the parang function hall thing with the daanan na may scary stuff sa taas, wala lan. haha. maganda siya. hehe.
joar and gia. under abacan. di nako nka-nstp dito.
la lan.
funniest pic evurrr. hahaha.

yep. pharma 1a was there.
korean friends jessica and kaety with kua mark. haha. feeling korean. well, chinese xa. haha.
fact: di namin pinag-usapan na mag-pipink kme. actually, half ng pharma, nka-pink. haha.influencing them bigtime? haha.
jacuzzi?? haha. left to right: abby, george-melissa, eloisa, mia, irish, ila, norvic, cath-mine?, jiannelle. lurveyuuuu.
uhm. pharma feat. aiza. haha. yan! yan si aiza seguerra. tama ba spell? haha.

bago ang lahat, isang paalala. don't believe in ANYTHING that pae will post on her blog about me and the pharma boys. that is sooo not true! aryt?

my week. should i say stressing?? nagiging overused na ang word na "stress" sa blog ko e. friday-saturday. overnight with my pharma (na issue ngayon sa camp. lagot kami kay dean!) at alfredo's. clean fun. *ehem* got up so early coz of nstp sh*t! then, got home din by 8:30 am. went under the abacan bridge after. yep. read that right. under the bridge. hehe. twas fun thou. haha. rob after. jollibee (im currently addicted to mango de crema. thanks gia!) then went home. (la pa ko tulog nian a!) brownout. kosi and i went to sm. watched you got me. waa. baduy or whatever pero naiyak ako. haha. zanjoe's role was sooo sweet. uber! like i cried two times yta? haha.flaws was quite evident. hehe. yung coconut thingy was very impossible. haha. so yun. yellow cab after. then, naghahanap ako ng blue top whatever sa kung san-san pro i didn't find one. kainis! so i guess, i'll be wearing something not so new. hhmmnn. camp night lan nman e. hehe. di nman debut. haha. anyway, pictures. above. hehe. gia sent me this quote that kinda struck me.

sakit pala
pag di
pwede maging kayo,

sakit pala
pag friend
lang tingin nia sayo,

sakit pala
pag may
mahal xang iba.

pero alam
mo kung ano
pinaka-masakit?

yung..

hindi nga
kayo pero

sweet siya sayo.

haha! striking! ouch na ouch. i was hit! i wonder if he's feelin the same. i think hindi. coz he's crazy!! haha. pero, is it wrong fall in love with someone you don't want to fall for? *sigh* di pa naman. ayoko.

mui

2007-03-01T03:55:00.000-08:00

*yea. im a teen whose heart is beating faster, faster. haha. together with the ************ boys and harlequin girls. hehe. figure it out your own. haha.

*i feel like blogging whatevers. ang tagal magtext nung magtetext daw. hehe. anyway, our GREATEST DREAM(exaggerating, stupid.) of having a CAMP night has been granted. haha. at pajama party pa yata?? atleast hindi stripes and dots. hehe. peace! that's on march 9. hindi ko maitatago sa aking sarili na ako'y tunay na excited. hehe. *sana dumating ang mga PT* hehe.

*pamela. don't cry out loud. sbi ni tubi. hehe. cheer up poor girl.

random pics

2007-02-28T03:36:00.000-08:00

RANDOM PICTURES that occupy lots of space on the computer. i just feel the need to delete 'em. hehe. except for two of course.

gift ni alice. love her.

yuh. di photogenic. haha. look at his room. he told me na ilang beses na siyang nalaglag sa bed coz of that electric fan. haha. *Lord, wag niya po sanang makita to* hehe.
cute stuff.
pharma NSTP. kahit kelan. stand out talaga si Jasmine! haha.

botany book. i wonder where's mine now. stacked?
botany slides. ma'am goce's bestfriends. haha.
in my bed. usapan namin "candid".
alice's anniv and valentine's gift for me. yeah. love you alice!
UE's NSTP uniform is more boring than ours. hehe. haha.

~talk about bein my husband. haha, *kilig*

t.j.

2007-02-26T03:32:00.000-08:00

he's a drummer. a slamming guitarist. he's into badminton and basketball. cleans the house. cooks. he loves to pillow talk. is it considered that he's an expert in dota?. we share same kinds of stuff. he makes my heart melt. he listens. he speaks. damn! he's goodlooking!!. he is my dream come true. HE IS INDESCRIBABLE. but, something's wrong. i don't know what it is, but, i can feel it. it's bothering me everyday, that my day goes to waste. he flirts. i flirt back. hell with us. argh! if we fall in love maybe i'll eat my words someday. i dunno. this is befuddling. i'm sure aling is already like "cesc? huh?" hehe. he doesn't sweep me off my feet. and. it is pure *kilig*. haha! ang gulo ko noh?? *di nga kasi ako madaling ma-inlove e* i guess it is best to love wisely, no doubt: but to love foolishly is better than not to be able to love at all. AND!! the essence of love begins when infatuation ends. yea ryt. i didn't sign up for that movement thingy na wala ka dapat boyfriend or girlfriend for 1 year. hehe. weird. sweet muffin ass! hehe.

*di ko maintindihan sarili ko. schizophrenia na ba ito?*

Heaven knows, what to say
Eventhough for right now you're so far away
I hope and I pray
Somewhere in your heart
I'll always stay
Never noticed what it feels like to be without you
Feels like I took my last step and my last breath in my life
Had to say just what I was feeling
This is more for me than for you
I finally see there's no substitute
For what we have
Do you know how much I love you
-without you

*waa. pagpasensiyahan niyo na po ako. huhu.*

gk.

2007-02-25T04:34:00.000-08:00

GK 1MB. i was. am. part of that!
kaninong kamay yn? ha?
eagleman, ako, jad, elaine, jade
gox! ayta i jhed! hehe. educ ya!
GK kids.

GK site in Tabun, Mabalacat.
ate nica, jad, ces, ate jade
uhm. titas and titos. ung guy sa left. lost brother ni kosi. hehe.
guess who?? bagong model ng talk n text. haha.
solo! cno ung nka-yellow? hehe. yup. with ate carebear/ines and marie flor de luna. haha. and ate jade. lunch immersions. family #25 kme. wohoo. solo. kung wala ate mo namatay na kme tska ung family na pinunthan nmen sa gutom. hehe.

"i don't know who you really are, is it enough that i know you as the *kikay* girl who loves color pink? na mahilig sa charity works? na pharma student? with tons of friends? na soon to be blah blah ng blah blah? na siguro e may lovelife? yihee! pano mo napapagsabay-sabay un? basta! i really need to know you more!! as in!! usap tayo minsan ah! *smiles*"
-somebody.

-knowing me is easy. it just takes a lot of time. yea. usap tayo sa labas. hehe.

*ang aga akong pinatulog ni tj.(tinatamad na pala akong kwento ung smen. hehe. dmi ko iniicp bout him e. i guess it's not HIM. better luck next time ces.) haha. di nia ngets ang aming conversation. tsk. bka ktxt si lauren? waa. pro nag-aral xa. good to hear from him. yihee. *excited nako for next week. crossed fingers*

..

2007-02-22T21:20:00.000-08:00

*i know it reminds you of somethin. hehe. not connected.*

ok. special entry for aling.
eexplain ko ang status nmen ni PTJ.
ganito.

CRUSH ko xa. before pa. as in 1st sem. hanggang tingin lan ako. hehe. then, here comes 2nd sem(woohoo!). ive heard a lot of *tsismis* bout him. hehe. so un. february 12 ng gabi, nanghihingi xa ng katxt sa common friend nmen na classmate ko. so, alam ng buong class na siya ay aking iniirog, so, number ko ang binigay nia. (nangheram na pla xa ng labgown sken before. hehe.). so un. feb 13. official texting started. hehe. di pa xa sweet nung mga first 3 days of texting nmen. then. bigla nlang nging gnun. he asked me several PERSONAL stuff. sinagot ko nman. hehe. kung cguro bbgyan ko xa ng test about me and my life, mkakaperfect na xa. so un. ako rin xmpre. mjo mdmi dmi din akong alam bout him. tapos un. *nakita nmen ni pae super crush nmen(kim is d name! wee..)* wait. tinamad ako bigla. to be continued..

pae :uwi nako ;)

huhu.

2007-02-22T02:27:00.000-08:00

*TJ!! linawin mo naman please!! hehe. im really confused. ano bang meron between the two of us?? oh yea. i don't want us to remain like this forever. haha. sbi nga ni aling. "ces! sabihin mo na kasi na mahal mo siya!" waa. crush ko plang un. and right now, super *kilig* plang tlga. hehe.

kilig.kilig.kilig.period.

*sigh*

tj

2007-02-20T05:03:00.000-08:00

>>how i wish i could show you all my inbox. which is conquered by PTJ. haha. i still call him PTJ. ayoko mag-assume. haha. pero. let's say i've felt the same feeling before, haha. iba kay ptj. hehe. kasi, he is the VERY LEAST person i'm expecting to come. you know what i mean. hehe. o basta un. *happy*

>>cno gusto maging textmate si mar roxas?? hehe. yup. ex ni korina sanchez. haha. (pae! tsismis! woohoo.) tell me. haha. i'll give you his number. hehe.

>>this day is tiring. really. cha-cha?? haha. yfc meeting after. logic test the next day. stress. but!!! he's keeping me alive. haha.
p.s. if you're interested, you can see him on my friendster profile, he dropped me a testi. the latest one. haha.

*you're always on my mind. from the time i wake up, till i close my eyes. you're everywhere i go, you're all i know. the feeling just keeps getting stronger everyday.*

tj.

2007-02-19T01:47:00.000-08:00

*yup. thanking him for the smile. for the inspiration. for the reason of waking up early and going to school. thanking him for spending much on load. for the orange. the contacts. the coat. for bein b o s s. hehe.

*wanna see him?? let me know. *wink*

ptj

2007-02-17T05:35:00.000-08:00

i should be bloggin about my day. how it went well and stuff. uhm. so, movie. the messengers. great! love the thrill and that "woman" screamin like hell. hehe. yellow cab after. crazy pictures. lurve it!

joe~ thanks so much! had a great time with you. uber! i missed you soo much! and much and much! loveyoooooo!

timo~ thanks sa walang sawang paghatid sken sa bahay everytime. as in! super appreciated.Ü super super. and sa mga kwentong "uhrm" hehe. thanks much timo. lubyu! *pictures* lurve yer fone!

alice~ waa.. loveyou soo much! thanks sa gift. di pako nkabili ng for you. like 5 years na tyo? or 4? hehe. loveyou soo much!! goodluch sa f&h thing. i know you'll win! ayta nman e. hehe. loveyou loveyou!

okay. today's highlighted event!! well, not really. but. it's really SOMETHING for me. a real BIGGIE. hmmn. let that image below do the explaining. hehe.

~he *kinda* asked me out. haha. *chills down my spine!*

in lurve.

2007-02-16T04:08:00.001-08:00

*some people say that you don't know what you have until you lose it, but it's not like that. you always know what you have, you just never thought you would lose it.

~joe. haha. i want that make up thing dn. magawa nga. pero para unique, sa mukha ko lalagay. hehe. *ulk!* pretty baby.Ü

*sigh* gusto ko din umalis. inaya ako kanina ng mga pharma *mag-shot* pero may lakad dapat kme ng mga tao na di natuloy. hhmm. sayang ang yummy choco vodka. hehe. gusto ko tlga uummaalliiss!! dpat matuloy ako bukas!! hehe.

mag-fontana tyoo!!! huhu. or ung sa san fdo. hehe. ilayo nio akoooo.. hehe. finals na!! ano nnman kaya mgiging itsura ko? huu.

*i was one of those 17 students who passed our *LONG QUIZ* in anatomy.. woohhoo.. at hndi kme 18 sa klase. wee. haha! *happy* i so want to watch music&lyrics or the holiday. waa. or rome&juliet. hehe. lol.

*ngayon lan ako nka-encounter ng guy of same interest as mine when it comes to music. haha. as in xa lan tlga kilala kong may kilala sa mga un. hehe. la lan. nababana ako. super. im not expectin na he's into indie music dn. waa.. hehe. kinikilig ako. PTJ. lol. haha.

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2007-02-15T05:02:00.000-08:00

RANDOM THOUGHTS:

~joe! binigyan mo pala ng testi si ina ko. hehe. super shocked ku kase ako nga di ko mabigyan yun e! haha. ala mu. loveyou! yung kukwento mo a! reserve. kilala mo din si erika? hhmmnn.. and yung mga nag-aad sken sa friendster. i mean LAHAT a! lahat nka-link syo.hehe.

~fhatz! ika rin! ing kukwento mo neh? nako. di pa rin ako mka-get over kay noel. turn-off talaga. hehe. mua! loveyou! saturdays with you. hehe. miss ko na si jappeeeee!!!

~solo! musta na si aries? hehe. at ikaw!!! stressed kna ba? 1st yr kplan a. remind ko lan. hehe.

~mr wil. eow! musta na ang calling card thing mo? tagal na nun. hehe. missyou!

~kati! missyu ulet. hehe. lubyu pusa. alis tayo tomorrow. neh. neh. neh.

~pamela! haha. kita mo na. un sbi ni PTJ. tsktsk. kailangan ko talaga si norvic this time. haha.

~PTJ.. hehe. as if. thanks for making me pretty. i mean, umaga palang pinapaganda mo na ang aking araw. at dahil doon ay lalo akong gumaganda. hehe. FOOLISH HEART HEED MY WARNING YOU'VE BEEN WRONG BEFORE!!

~kuya james- waa.. marine ku. sa kinadami dami na araw na pwede kang mag-blog hop e ngayon mo pa naisip. at nakita ang pinost kong pic ng cubicle mo. hehe.

~jules. nako. nako. i discovered na ur one of them din. tsk. your sweet lies pnman are killing me na. pero, "nasasapawan" ni tj kaya ok lan. hehe. i won't fall for you. bleeh. =P

~aling! isa kpa. miss dnkang babatak!! musta na ang "wilkins"?? hehe.. ang weird nun a. as in. sana mag-ganun din kme. hehe. muamua! lovedka!

*pano kaya pag nalaman mo na nung tayo..
*get it? tsk.

..

2007-02-14T05:43:00.000-08:00

got this from mayor noel villanueva's friendster photos. hehe.wanna wanna wanna go here. masku. augustine. game? hehe. mt. pinatubo.
pink drink from the healthy store. hehe. lurve that color.
true love waits.
my babies. yea. hehe. want moooore!!
courtesy of norvic and jiannelle. thnx much. love you guys.

thief slash lab me. hehe. i look like err during our chem lab. one word. stress. hehe. *sana po ok na groupmates ko next sem* hehe.
cute drawing by mee. haha. emphasized ang stick jan. hehe.
weird names that we saw from the jeepney nung nag-NSTP kme. hehe.

mm. this line goes to. uhh. him. him. him. hehe.

phenol experiment. suckin glue-like smell that sticked to my hair. argh.
i am a 101% nai-cha addict. hehe.
cute little small messy cubicle of kua james. hehe. those blue stuff above are soo adorable. clay work thingy made by him. hehe.
TJ's reaction paper in CF. waa. kinikilig ako. hehe. nababasa nio ba? hehe. that's Mallari, TJ Bspt 1-A. haha. mgshishift nkong PT. hehe.
my baby pic. oo na. oo na. di ko kamuka alm ko. epal na finger ni pae. feeling french. haha.

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*pardon my kpampangan. u know im not good at it*

bolang!! ot makanyan ka! ika na nga ing mkasakit ika pa ing gnyn. balamu manhid ku. haha. natatwa ako sa kapampangan ko. haha. bolang ka. g*go. kung balu mu lang ining afifeel ko ngeni. damo! mete naka? mamete nka? haha. waa. ang baduy. haha.

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"if i fall along the way, pick me up and dust me off and if i get to tired to make it, be my breath so i can walk.. if i need some love, give me more that i can stand and when my smile gets old and faded, wait around i'll smile again"

-bent, matchbox20

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*PTJ. hehe.

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2007-02-13T06:24:00.000-08:00

*duh* what was that supposed to mean?? *duh* i'm just being me.. o whatev. this matter suxx for me. haha.

**mark this day!! haha!! i got the chance to atleast know some stuff bout PTJ. yup. TJ. haha!! he made my morning m'duffy!! waa. haha. feel like dying na sa sobrang kilig knina. haha. *pharma girls* know that. haha. super lurved this day!! *kahit ginawan ako ng scandal* that goes a liittle somethin like this.
video to ha!

gia: ces, nasan si PTJ??
ces: dito sa puso ko. haha. (mga banat ever!)

then, they. we. watched the video all over again. and guess what?? waa. maniac na fone yn! hehe. *secret*

*di ko matiis wag mag-blog today just for the reason na SI PTJ!!! waa.. haha. he made mention pa bout his love life. tsk. poor boy. and conflicts with her mom. haha. im still in cloud 9.

*last year. eiron gave us a rose nung valentines. this year. walang eiron. does this mean wala ding rose?? hehe. i remember nor's birthday last year. i was the "emcee" when the *guys* with eiron do that "thing". *sigh* and today. eiron. and. norlyn. never mind. im expecting 'something' from the pharma boys. haha. as what they told me. haha. ambush. hehe.

~jules.tj. thanks for making my valentines extraspecial.
*can't wait mag-intern sa manila. hehe.

~love you ina. soo much!

**happy heart's day people. mua.

yearyt.

2007-02-09T19:17:00.000-08:00

*haha! whatta message! sir percy?? so suxx! truth is.. i don't want to hear from you anymore.. i'm not mad at you.. really! i don't want to be filled in and i'm not ready for an amity either..i don't think i'll be ready for it..i know i'm acting conventionally so don't throwback whatsoevers on me..

FACT is:

S-M-O-K-I-N-G is NOT ~~COOL~~!!!
and it won't help you IN ANY WAY resolve or blank over your problems..

*you guys are the ones who keep me alive and seeing you like that makes me feel like dying..

me

2007-02-08T02:54:00.000-08:00

i knew it! i knew that i'll be posting this song someday.. and that someday is today!

Jealous

Nina

Jealous of the girl who caught your eye

One of my ~~darker~~ days

When you looked at her, where was I

Should've been in her place

Here I am, all alone imagining

What might have been,

what could've been if I had been there

CHORUS:

Jealous of the one whose arms are around you

If she's keeping you ~~satisfied~~

Jealous of the one who ~~finally~~ found you

Made your sun and stars ~~collide~~

La la la la la la la

She's a very, very lucky girl

La la la la la la la

Jealous of the girl who ~~won~~ your heart

They say it's a ~~perfect~~ match

She's gonna get to be where you are

And it don't get better than that

She say you're fine, whisper words

I wished were ~~mine~~

What might have been,

what could've been if I had been there

And you know I'd fight the good fight

If I thought I'd changed your mind

But if she makes you happy

Then I'll leave that dream behind

Then she better treat you right

And give you everything

'Cause the moment that she doesn't

I'll be waiting in the wing

*the bridge part is not for me. coz i know that someday.. someone's gonna love me the way nah nah nah.. hehe.. healing takes time.. and.. i guess what i did was the best escape i could think of.. guys, thanks for withstanding my decision.. *duh?* hehe..

*define folly (n):

a.) it's when ces called pae through her cellphone and talk about drivel. fact is, they are seatmates.. hehe.. phone call care of sun cellular.. MAG-SUN NA RIN KAYOOO!!!!! globe pa rin ako.. hehe..

b.) it's when you're out of your mind while in the passenger's seat and trying to test how "strong" the car tint is by waving your hand to that guy outside.. haha! and in return, the guy also waved his hand.. haha! pae on background: malandeh!!

*tambak na ako for photo blogging!! soon men! soon! hehe..

*if it's crazy to pretend that i don't think of you then call me crazy..

hi

2007-02-05T09:11:00.000-08:00

chemistry.anatomy.phar cal.

also spelled as s-t-r-e-s-s!

hhmmnn..

*pae! about that ex-toto thing, my lips are sealed! *wink* hehe..

pee berdae

2007-02-04T20:51:00.000-08:00

white background..
poor mee..
there's a story behind that stupid!
that too!

bamboo!!

-more pictures will be uploaded, as of now, e, "PAGTYAGAAN" ang multiply ni jad nandun ung iba..

yea

2007-02-01T05:48:00.000-08:00

icebreaker:
i was walking when 2 of tok's friends passed me by..
friend ni tok: maganda talaga ate ni kahlil noh?
me: (zygomaticus minor actuates)hehe..

anyway, imma blog some arrgghh stuff that.. get into my nerves.. really..

1.) mga sunog baga. mga adik na walang kinabukasan. hehe.. i hate smokers who puff their smoke just anywhere.. like duh?? we inhale most of the unpleasant chemicals or whatever a ciggy has.. to think na we are just passer-bys.. something stupid like that! burn your lungs in hell!!!

2.) speed dating. i know we have different insights on this, but.. i think speed dating is lame. period.

3.)"sasa" teens at bars/discobars. hate these tots for actin and feelin like adults when in fact they're just what???? "highschoolers".. im just speakin my mind.. may mao-offend ba?? hehe..

4.)plastic.fakers.backstabbers. gossip mongers. you all deserve to be living in hades. people who pretend to be your friend and in the end what?? they don't know crap!

5.) stereotypes. two words.. you suck!

6.) "feelers". feeling gwapo. feeling pretty. feeling magaling. feeling famous. feeling mo may gusto sayo. feeling mo gusto ka. feeeellllliiinnggg!!!!! stay humble you guys! i-feel mo pag may nagsabi talaga sayo! argh!

7.) mga nagattend ng LuvapaLooza (tama ba spell?) na Pilipino, nagmarcha daw papunta sa Hungarian Embassy sa Makati para hamunin ang Hungary at bawiin ang title ng most kissing couples
Girl: We're doing this to take back the pride of the Filipino people.
Guy: Yeah, we're still the best kissers *kisses girl*
Tin: *rolls eyes* Duh!! Ano naman kaya un?? (permission to quote ma'am Rora) Kababawan!! PRIDE kayo jan?!! Helloooo? Haha,, katawatawa,, Pride daw ng Pilipino makipaghalikan?? naku, para silang mga tanga dun.
*from augustine yahoogroups.. nuff said by tine..

8.) lies. including guys. cheesy lines. stupid lies by stupid guys. and how stupid are we (gurls) for believing & still falling for their nonsense! wake up call.. whatever!

*shheesszz!! wickedness is making me feel good.. and as for that of 1 peso for every unkind word, poor me.. im just beating about the bush..

2007-01-30T06:57:00.000-08:00

ehem! another version of trina's and friend's,, uhm? dont know what to call this.. hehe.. isa lan mssbi ko.. dalaga na so triii!!!! hehe..
la lan.. cute.. hehe..
ina! ina! ina! after 7 mos, we already met each other face to face.. hehe.. she's the best! love her tlga! ehem!
i need to visit a dermatologist this friday.. coz of that suckin thing! huhu!
nails last week..
nails this week..
holy rosary church.. with a classmate at a wedding hehe.. kita ko si g-ann dun and bf.. hmmnn,,

dissected suckin toxic frog with a pink pin.. hehe..

hmmnn..?? so anong latest??

>>project of the year.. we won the 2nd place.. epal na iwas bulate xe e!

>>had a bf for one nyt..haha!! friday night that is.. i can see eyebrows raising.. hehe.. trip lan un! swear! wla un.. good girl po ako..

>>sandovals are present last monday.. haha!

>>newly weds arvin and angel... congrats! haha!

ces: may journalism dba?

pae: oo! ganun ung course ng pinsan ko tapos nag-masters yta xa un nga dapat course ko e..

ces: ay! oo! bagay mo un! tas mgwwork ka sa d buzzzz.. hehehe..

PE class: FOLKDANCE..

partners.. ces-pae

ces(gurl) pae(malanjot na guy) haha!!

>>love you sooo much pharma!! thanks for the vid and the effort and stuff.. princess!!! ur d bestest ever! lubbyusoomuch! wish i cud show u guys the video.. epal na youtube xe 10 mins lan..

>>i hate hap.. huhu! die hap! die!!

**ban pae's blog!! huhu! pero i admit, i was really a poor girl at that instant! i was crying talaga.. poor me.. huhu.. im kinda ok na.. thnx to people..

posting..

2007-01-28T01:44:00.000-08:00

i lurve my friday and saturday night.. (apup left again..i know where he'll go.. hehe) anyway, atleast i had time for my pretty self.. and i guess i'll be religiously doin that every week..(i also said this once.. hehe) bsta.. i'll make kwento tomorrow..plus all the stuff that made me uh, bsta photos.. hehe.. coz human anatomy needs my attention.. argh!

messaged to me by a concerned someone on friendster.. hehe..

>>People come into your life for a reason, a season or a lifetime. When you know which one it is, you will know what to do for that person.

When someone is in your life for a REASON,it is usually to meet a need you have expressed. They have come to assist you through a difficulty, to provide you with guidance and support, to aid you physically, emotionally or spiritually. They may seem like a God send and they are. They are there for the reason you need them to be.Then, without any wrong doing on your part or at an inconvenient time, this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end.Sometimes they die. Sometimes they walk away. Sometimes they act up and force you to take a stand. What we must realize is that our need has been met, our desire fulfilled, their work is done. The prayer you sent up has been answered and now it is time to move on.

Some people come into your life for a SEASON, because your turn has come to share, grow or learn. They bring you an experience of peace or make you laugh. They may teach you somethingyou have never done. They usually giveyou an unbelievable amount of joy. Believe it, it is real. But only for a season.!

LIFETIME relationships teach you lifetime lessons, things you must build upon in order to have a solid emotional foundation. Your job is to accept the lesson, love the person and put what you have learned to use in all other relationships and areas of your life. It is said that love is blind but friendship is clairvoyant.

>>Thank you for being a part of my life,whether you were a reason, a season or a lifetime.

**waa! project of the year tomorrow.. nervous me. huhu!

loff

2007-01-26T22:10:00.000-08:00

>>got this article in glamour.. i forgot who wrote this one.. hehe.. i might be accused of plagiarism.. credits later.. promise! ehe.. anyway.. this one is for all who can touch on .. i know madami tayo.. tayo?? kayo.. hehe..

People may say no one ever died of a broken heart, but when you're suffering from one, it sure doesn't feel that way--at least initially. These suggestions may help you navigate the painfully troubled waters of a relationship that has ended.

Day 1
Instructions
STEP 1: Breathe. All you can do is survive this first and difficult day. Take one day at a time.
STEP 2: Give yourself permission to mourn. Call in sick at work, sleep all day, eat too much ice cream, sob.
STEP 3: Congratulate yourself for being human: It is only when you open yourself to love that your heart can break.
STEP 4: Develop and repeat a helpful mantra to get you through the initial shock and pain, such as "This too shall pass" or "I will survive."

Day 2
Instructions
STEP 1: Reach out to a close friend or family member. It helps to share your thoughts with others.
STEP 2: Watch a movie to distract yourself. Choose a comedy that has cheered you up in the past. Or watch a movie that's guaranteed to make you sob--it may surprise you how good that feels.

Week 1
Instructions
STEP 1: Force yourself to go out even if you are feeling despondent. Take yourself out for a cup of coffee or go on a long walk.
STEP 2: Express your emotions in a way that comes naturally. Write in a journal, paint, sculpt or play music.
STEP 3: Do daily cardiovascular exercise--the endorphins will give your spirits an immediate lift.
STEP 4: Resist the urge to call your ex. Instead, write a letter. Don't mail it.
STEP 5: Go out of town for the weekend to distance yourself from the temptation to call your ex. Visit an old friend or go back home to your roots. A change of environment does wonders for the spirit.
STEP 6: Put everything that reminds you of your ex in a box and seal it. Throw it away, donate it to charity or ask a friend to hold on to it indefinitely.

Week 2
Instructions
STEP 1: Surround yourself with friends. This may mean reaching out to people you fell out of touch with during the relationship.
STEP 2: Make lists to help you regain your confidence and identity: a list of your friends, of things you like, of what you want to accomplish in the next decade.
STEP 3: Spoil yourself: Get a new hairstyle, have a spa day or go shopping.
STEP 4: Resist the urge to call your ex.

Week 3
Instructions
STEP 1: Assess the experience. Have you learned anything about yourself? Does the experience make you more empathetic to others who've suffered a hardship?
STEP 2: Begin an activity that will fill your time, distract your mind and rebuild your confidence. Train for a marathon, take up yoga or learn a new language.
STEP 3: Resist the urge to call your ex.
STEP 4: Volunteer your time at a local homeless shelter, soup kitchen or tutoring center. It will take your mind off your own woes and keep your suffering in perspective.

Week 4
Instructions
STEP 1: Continue regular socializing and exercising. While socializing, though, make sure you don't depend on alcohol or drugs to dull the pain.
STEP 2: Call your ex if you feel it would be helpful. Resist if you merely want to say hurtful things.
STEP 3: Consider dating other people, but be wary of rebound relationships.
STEP 4: Understand that you will need to experience and process sadness, anger, guilt and fear to fully heal. Burying or ignoring these emotions will thwart the healing process. Write, cry, share the feelings with friends.

Months 3 to 6
Instructions
STEP 1: Force yourself to go on dates. You'll be surprised to discover that your heart can still flutter over someone. It's part of the healing process.
STEP 2: Consult a psychiatrist if you are experiencing symptoms of depression, such as lack of appetite, insomnia or too much sleeping, low self-esteem, and an inability to concentrate or carry out routine tasks. Ask a friend or physician to recommend one who is experienced in treating depression.
STEP 3: Remember that healing is a process that takes time. Expect waves of sadness, anger, guilt or fear even after you think you are over it. Give your heart time to heal.

One year and beyond
Instructions
STEP 1: Compartmentalize the experience in your memory: "My heart was broken once. It really hurt and I'm glad it's over."
STEP 2: Reach out to your ex if you want to re-establish a friendship. Do not harbor secret ambitions of winning him or her back. You'll only set yourself up for another heartbreak.

>>those stressed in red were already DONE by me.. those in purple, i shall meet in the future lalo na yung week 2 step 3.. hehe.. and those in orange are for JOE.. hehe..

>>"she wants me to be her friend nalang.. kahit la akong makitang reason para makipag-break xa sken.. anyway, that's her decision.. kahit na love na love mo yung isang tao, sometimes you have to set her free.. ces, you know how much i love her.."
-from a friend.. i didn't expect how the situation ruined that something.. i heard both sides, but i don't understand.. till now.. sana pala talaga dinamayan mo ko last night..

>>i grasp the thought that if you ever have broken your arm, you know what it looks like when the cast(tma ba?) is removed. It looks thinner, sometimes almost withered. It is covered with dead, discolored skin that has a pretty disgusting odor. It is weak from lack of use. In some cases, therapy may be necessary to restore full suppleness. And for a number of years afterward, the location of the break, though healed, may occasionally ache. When we have a broken bone, we are rushed to assistance so that further complications do not result. If left untreated, we might be left with mild to severe disability that can be more difficult to correct later. Depending upon the type and sternness of the break, bone fragments may damage surrounding tissue, cause bleeding, and other types of internal trauma that might lead to more serious conditions.(idea from human anatomy! skeletal system.. hehe)At no time are we told to 'just get over it.' We are given pain medication if necessary and are treated with some kind of adaptation to help us adjust to our daily lives until the bone is fully healed. The people in our lives treat us with extra caring and consideration.(ayta nman e.. hehe)You don't feel it necessary to hide the fact that your arm is broken. You know how long the cast should remain in place before removing it. The rate of healing can be checked by radiology(not sure) to make sure the cast isn't removed too soon. There is a specific treatment procedure and you are given instructions to follow. If the circumstances surrounding what caused the break result in anxiety, it is acknowledged as real.A broken heart can be mended if it is acknowledged as a real injury and not brushed off as something that will take care of itself in time if left alone. Those of us who have mended hearts have often had to develop our own treatment protocols, some more effective than others. And afterward, like a broken bone that has healed, there is always some residual evidence of the trauma. Even if what was broken ends up being stronger than it was before.Anyone who has suffered from a 'broken heart' will tell you that they would rather have a broken arm. It hurts less, heals faster and you get more help with it.

*mamaya na..*

2007-01-25T05:09:00.000-08:00

i love one tree hill.. and i remember a line told by lucas.. i quote, "it's not regretting the past and appreciating what we have now.. great memories.. great friends.." aryt!

i am crushing on this 20 yr old archi student of hello? hau.. haha! he is jasmine's cousin.. (ok ok.. si jasmine ung nadapa nung welcome freshmen.. dun nio xa kilala e.. pro, 1st runnr up sa ms. u.. hehe).. la lan.. share q lan.. saw him in flesh at last.. hehe.. share q lan..at isa siyang 'ocampo'.. hehe..

im not really in the mood today.. something crossed my mind and.. wala lang.. nahihirapan nakoo.. btw, i need your prayers.. i don't know why, pero i was chosen as one of the defenders of our thesis.. err, i mean, project of the year.. hehe.. ano ggwin ko dun? magpapacute?? hhaaii.. pls pray for me.. camp pnmn lhat ng klaban.. gudluck to us..

*sigh*

2dae..

2007-01-24T06:34:00.000-08:00

yep.. frog dissection today.. 1 word.. "eew!" ginawa ko ng body spray ang lysol at lotion ang alcohol and i still feel the chill pag naaalala koo.. hehe.. i have pics!! i'm the only one in the class (i guess??) who got the chance of taking pictures.. haha! don't ask me why and how.. i just did! hehe.. and! special thanks to mitch, cath, jessica and denver for doin some stuffs for me.. like pinning the frog on its ventral position and more.. eeww.. hehe..

i have been thinkin a lot lately..
1st: i think may bago nnmng girl si apup.. wla pa dun ung mga nkkta ko sa fone nia..fyi.. apup is my dad.. hehe.. last night hindi xa umuwi.. like, umuwi na xa before 7am.. tas hinatid na nia q.. then! paguwi ko nnmn gling skul, wla nnmn ung car, meaning, wala xa.. then, i slept.. pggising ko, nanjan na ung car.. wala nman xa.. hhaaii.. gulo.. kya minsan, napapaisip ako, sa 3 wife ng dad ko, i wonder cno sa kanilang 3 ung love niya talaga, like pag tinanong xa, cno ang babalikan at babalikan nia sa 3?? mom ko kya?? err.. e even my mom, my husband na rin sa states.. obviously, i don't want a husband like my dad.. like hello?? ewan ko ba pano na-bear ng mom ko lahat.. disaster! hehe.. kaya no wonder ganyan brother ko.. na tinotolerate pa rin ni apup despite everything! weird.. ako lang talaga matino sa family nmen.. hehe.. true!

2nd: i need suggestions or whatevers on how to get rid of someone you don't really really like! except for the changing of number, which, accdg to ate karen, is a big no-no.. hehe.. nakooo nman xe! mark! die!!!

3rd: YFC.. waa!! i still can't decide over things.. i was given a really high postion.. that is a BIG responsibility.. that takes a LOT of time.. that might change me.. really.. and everythin.. what if hindi pa si kua tet ang maging future partner ko if ever?? patay.. he is d best ever e.. sigh.. hello?? buong school ang hawak koooo?? household nga nmen hirap nq e.. hirap pla kme.. buong school paa?? huhu.. well, life..

4th: malapit na 1st monthsary nmen ng stye ko.. and this suckin thing is still here.. huhu.. shall i wait?? ayookoo ng surgery,, hehe..

5th: i'm emotionally stressed.. di pwede dito ang it's all in the mind.. coz it's reality.. hehe.. pero, ok lan.. im lovin it..

like pae, i also went through series of psych tests.. and here are the results.. accdg to my tests:

-i am caring.. (am i ?? hehe)
-generous
-possessive
-helpful
-i make decisions with my heart
-passionate
-sympathetic
-friendly (di nga e..)
-do things for others
-man hater (na-ah!)
-has aggressive feelings
-demanding to someone's attention (haaah??)
-self-sacrificing
-has confused thoughts (true!)
-show others you're happy but you're not! (true!!)
-has initial actions for problems
-good listener
-loyal sa partner (really!!)
-don't wanna get married but wants to be attached (nde.. hehe)
-thinks of the future with someone..
-looks on the past and present..
-i should get to know the person first before trusting and befriending..
-not a war freak
-happy go lucky
-like mother teresa (ehem ehem! st. ces)
-doesn't fall easily in love
-likes a guy with a good sense of humor
-insecurity may be the cause of break-up in a relationship
-independent
-dreams big (eto lang naman dream ko e, -future husband's surname, Frances Shin F., RPh, M.D. -) haha! i want that MD on my name without studying for 6yrs or more! hehe..

*fhatz! ya! i remember na.. i guess?? hehe.. the negros thingy? ung alam nmen is sa naga city.. 2500 lahat.. with the transportation and registration plus the id and stufffs.. i want to go nga sana e! pero, i was thinkin.. vacation un.. we might be having our internship nun.. abangan nio ko! mercury drug or manson sa dau! near mcdo, near eiron's and gaux's place.. hehe.. or sa rob balibago.. wee!! may balak kbng sumama if evr?? xe gusto ko tlga.. hehe.. ung next xe nmen after bulacan, sa tarlac na.. gus2 ko sa malayo e.. hehe.. dpat nga bicol pa yn.. ehe.. un.. misu!

anhaba nito.. btw, thnx.. paeput.. for helping me out in my new template.. for being bossy and all.. =D i know it feels good.. ehe..

him 4evr.

2007-01-23T06:03:00.000-08:00

-i will still hold on to the words i said before- that i will always love you till my last heartbeat.. until the last breath that i take.. whatever happens.. whoever comes..

im so sick and tired of crying.. good thing my puffed eyes are not noticeable by others.. unlike stye.. =c

2pix

2007-01-19T22:04:00.000-08:00

pictures are uploaded na! it took me 17 hours!! yea! nwei, click here! to view..

thank you!! thank you!! thank you!!

*pharm1a
-gia, princess, jiannelle, cath, norvic, joar, manel, ley, joan, abby, angel, claire, clint, denver, i, irish, jabe, jet, kim, lorcille, nikki, paw, rechell, sarah, liz, kua mark and maam cae..
-thanks sa gifts and sa future gift.. hehe.. loveu loveu loveu sooo much guyz.. thnx for startin my college life a rockin' one! lubb ku kyong babatak!! suuppeerr!!! spxly malaya.. luvusoomuch!

*augustine06
-lou, audz, ate karen, g-ann, tere, mr. wil, chow, amio, budj, toot, don, kaezel, jad, dj, solo, xay, ti mux, mimi, pae, manas, aling (thnx sa msg.. super *touched* ako to the extremes!!), moi, apung ke, budi, ghari and timo..
-misyu augustine!! suppeerrr.. saLamat at di kyo nkalimot.. (ows?) kung wla lan ng-in4m for sure d rn kyo mggrit e.. hooo?? hehe,, ok lan.. love ko prn kyo.. with or without greetings.. ayta nman e.. hehe.. lubyuol!!

*YFC bros and sis
-ate norrine (salamat sa minu-minutong pag-grit! luvusomuch!), ton, calvin, zai, kua ebad, ate jade, pearl, roan, riel, gids, kua mackoi, tey, kua james, ate ellaine, kua tet and ate nica (xnxa sa mtgal na decision.. at super slamat sa lahat.. lubb dkang babatak!)
-thnx for filling a void in my life and thnx for inspiring me to serve Him better and for always bein my ate's and kua's and for always praying for my heart's desires and for simply bein there ALL THE TIME.. looveeyoouu sooo much!!

*my super friends (princess hours?? hehe..)
-kosi (salamat sa paggawa ng "ces mgnda day" thou everyday e ces mgnda day nmn.. hehe.. thnx for always bein der.. for always listenin and sharin a part of u to me..khit ayaw mong sumama sa concert.. mua! ayaw ko si peanut moo!! hehe.. lubbyu!), kati (i know you know all the things im thankful for coz of havin u arwnd.. superr!! salamat sa laging pakikinig, sa laging pagsama, sa trust mo sken, sa mga kabaliwan, sa lahat lahat lahat.. at nagsimula itong lahat ky sir paul.. o si fhatz?? cno ba gumwa ng sitting arrngmnt?? hehe.. bsta!! loveyou sooo much kati!!!), joe (nman! ang pilit na sumisira sa aking mgndang imahe... hehe.. salamat sa pag-istorbo mo sa mga classmates, friends, mom, ky bryan, at sa sis mo pra lan i-greet ako.. hehe. super thnx!!! super appreciated.. loveyou soooo much!!!!!!!) and kitoy (salamat din sa minu-minutong pag-greet at pagreremind sken sa bgay-bgay.. loveyousooo much kitoy!)

*masku
-jenny, eiron (salamat sa mkbagbag damdaming txt mo sken,, totoo lhat ng cnbi ko dun sa letter.. hehe,, i know i got ur back kya ill really think about that,,. loveyou eiron!), nor (prng d mq ngreet a?? hehe,,), joe, fhatz (ikw dn! gnreet mo bq ha??), jap (hmp!) and gox..

*more.
-him, ina, jhed, wallace (yup! i was shocked.. hehe..), arish, heidi, kim, soo, tine, ohana, kua erick, classmates and friends of joe, mom ni joe, bryan, ate jane, kua april, ate sa chowking, ate sa frio, friends ni tok and neighbors..

thnx for making my 17th birthday the greatest!! i heart you all..

>>>pictures.. pictures.. pictures..

uhh.. taken at selegna.. malagung dili..
those chocos were given to me by tok.. sweet neh?? kya lubb ke e..pae! un ung m&ms bar..ehe,,
bday celebration with masku.. we were playin killer killer?? o bullshit?? hehe.. whatev.. bsta, d ako natalo! ehe..
this was last night.. sa room.. la mgwa.. hehe.. so we played bullshit and 1-2-3 pass.. if you lost, either a figure or a line will be drawn on ur face using a balck eyeliner.. and guess what?? i got the most number of lost.. and so, i got the most drawn face.. nkpg-XO na cla, nkgwa ng 3rd eye, nkgwa ng stitch, ng balbas at bgote, ng x&y axis.. err.. yn lhat ng nsa muka ko last nyt.. at nkatulog ako ng gnun ang itsura q.. hehe..
yoohoo, yinee and gia.. adorable.. i luurrvveee these 3 qt things.. wishin to have moooore!!! i want a green, a purple and a yellow one..lhat naa!! pwede pa kyo humabol for gifts.. hehe..

1pixx

2007-01-19T21:26:00.000-08:00

birthday celebrated with our household at go nuts..
G.A. at the struggle afterwards..
sa house afterwards with jap.. and kati.. and gids..
studio pic with pharma at selegna..
birthday celebrated with pharma..

2007-01-17T10:15:00.000-08:00

before anything else.. solo!! this may be of little help on ur innocence.. ehe.. click here! (nag-susuggest lan po..) ehe..

been having million thoughts lately.. yfc, him, her, classmate stuffs, family stuffs, hap & cf (thank God im done with my reports here..) debut?? haha!! (i already made a list of the roses, candles and treasures! ehe.. excited?) anyway, back to reality.. how i wish i have that "chasing powers of joe.. i mean, you see her like that, as if she doesn't care on stuffs and just let it all hang there pero, see, she's capable of that "chasing" thing.. (though it's understood that people do get tired of some things).. kala ko di ako iiyak.. kala ko NR ako.. kala ko wala lang, then after, ok.. i was entirely wrong! how i wish crying could heal the pain.. why do i tend to keep my feelings? why not spoil? sinabihan na nga ako about that e.. in d end, i suffer.. now i can see again how weak i can be at times.. sigh.. and you know, it's really true that you see the worth of something once it's already gone and what's left are only memories..i would like to hear those words.. those words.. those words.. those words.. and it hurts to know that for somebody, everything was nothing.. i guess i'll be reading more of joshua harris's.. sigh..

you told me that you'll always be there whenever i'll be needin you.. what if i tell you that i need you..always.. i guess it's too late now.. take care of that piece of my heart that you own.. never will i take that back.. hhaaii.. life goes on cees!! argh!

pixx.. sum..

2007-01-15T06:53:00.000-08:00

APPETIZER.. ehe.. photos are already transferred.. some uploaded.. some not yet.. nwei, here's a view of "some"..

ghari as part of the 18 candles.. read that right! 18 candles!!
pre-birthday celebration with masku.. d best ever!
weird "motor girls"??? hehe..
i was wishin real hard,, wanna know? stye disappearance.. huhu!
freaks in my room..my room.. my room..

>>i'll inform you guys when all is done na.. i told you kasi, toxic talaga ko lately.. btw, MANALS!! happy "real" 18th birthday!!! ehe.. loveyou biatch! mua!

ln..

2007-01-13T20:29:00.000-08:00

joe, havnt uploaded the pixx.. issma ko nlan ung today's event.. ehe.. last nyt was uber fun.. and i saw some of the freaks i seldom see during odd occasions.. too bad agad umuwi ung iba.. ehem! *solo* ehem! *mr wil*.. and it was then and there.. like this: fhatz gave me the candle, and i: ano to?? fhatz: 18 candles gaga! whoa whoa whoa! haha! then and there.. plus the incident of papee and rr's.. haha! ehe.. twas a very one-off experience.. ehe.. that's the fun part.. so here comes the unlikeable part.. we were about to go home when i heard the song 'let me be the one..' la lan. share ko lan.. kakalungkot.. and the incident na nangyari sa isa jan.. i soo feel bad.. we, actually.. sana i could talk to you ASAP.. sigh..

hhmnn.. everytime pamela questions me about missing somebody, i'd say.. 'hndi'.. and 'di xe'.. eventhough she would respond to a very disbelieving "oooowwwsss".. but in actual fact, i really do miss that sumbody.. truly.. and.. i still don't know what to do.. i know that not everything lasts forever.. there are words left unsaid, and i was drowing in them.. but, i just can't swim my way out.. *so sad*

frgvns.

2007-01-12T21:15:00.000-08:00

-"waiting for God's timing requires trusting in His goodness and wisdom.. We develop patience as we trust that God denies what we think is good only because He has something better for us-both now and in the future.."

-"pursuing intimacy without commitment is like going mountain climbing with a partner who, once halfway up the mountain face, isn't sure he or she wants to hold the rope.."

-"but though we might be surprised by the contents of our hearts, God is not.. He understands how easily it can be swayed in the wrong direction.."

-"we have to practice now what we want to be in the future.. let's look at a few areas we can prepare for while we're still single.."

-"we need to concentrate not only on finding the right person but, more important, on becoming the right person.."

-excerpts from the book "i kissed dating goodbye" by Joshua Harris.. hhmmnn.. extremely recommended!!!! para sa mga "gagad".. ehe.. peace! i'm all over it! well, my birthday is real near.. share ko lan.. ehe..

* i hope and i pray that somewhere in your heart i'll always stay.."
-without you..

...

2007-01-11T00:48:00.000-08:00

hey! sorry ah! really.. as much as i would like to talk to you about some f*cked up things i think this is not just the perfect time coz i'm trying to prioritize more stuffs way important than this.. ya, i understand you and some stuffs like that but i think i deserve an explanation.. i don't need it now.. whenever.. but not now.. hhaaii.. sorry sorry sorry.. sorry.. yea.. sorry.. i'm just a txt away..

public apology to solo.. sorry sorry.. nka-sun xe q knina e.. ehe.. last na rin nman to.. ehe.. text nlan ulet kyo next time may balak kyong pumunta.. ehe.. tas hatid nio ulet aq.. wiweet! khit d ka sumama.. ehe.. sorry.. wee..

joan! alang maglalalalalalsiiing!!!! nq! ako magbabantay.. i'm a changed gurl now.. ehe.. ??????????????????? i should be a good model at good influence.. pro.. bsta alang magsusumbong a! join ako! hahaha!! quiet quiet.. weee..

fhatz.. 5pm here sa house meeting place.. invite pa pala kayo.. haha!! bat prng ako yta mei bertdei?? ehe..

err!! 5pm.. and i have to go back to school.. and oh! fhatz, joe and d rest na dapat mkabasa nito.. don't you dare forget about my birthday celebration with you guys this sunday.. aryt??

ta-ta!

2 yrs is long and you'll surely be missed.. sigh.. sorry for not bein me the way you want me to be.. sorry.. waa!!!! don't leave! huhu..

ouch.

2007-01-09T18:48:00.000-08:00

it sounds a lot like for me.. everything was ouch.. i'm so confused.. damn! i hate this sucking feeling! maybe i was really really wrong.. to think na 10 pa ngayon.. sigh..

>>special thanks to MR. WIL for cheering me up.. ehe.. i owe you one..

>>guyz.. 5pm on saturday.. jan 13.. manal's place.. bday celebration.. she's turning 18.. punta kyo..

this time, i'll put a meaning on this red colored font.. sorry joe..

>> fhatz, joe, pae, GIA, rosiel, mr wil, solo, princess, GAUX, kati, ate nica and others who served as my 'kakampis' and 'comedians?' or whatev.. thanks much you guys.. ehe.. much appreciated.. from the bottom of my broken? heart.. ehe.. andrama.. bsta! thnx a lot!

>> i was given another 'somethin' to think about.. wwaaaaaa!!! super thanks for the trust and everything kasi i know that it's a BIG responsibility yet you entrusted me with that.. waa!! signs again.. and hopin that I could get His grace for this.. waa!! waa!! waa!! YFC-AUF, are you ready?? haha!! waaa!! waa!! waa!!!

im down..

2007-01-08T04:22:00.000-08:00

what does pride have that makes it so hard to lessen for someone who has it..

-you always don't want to be the first to do the step to be with someone..
-you always try to hide your feelings..
-you don't want others to know that your hurt..
-you're afraid of letting someone know he's/she's special..
-you're afraid of losing someone but also afraid to show it..
-you're afraid to love someone whom you think can't love you back..
-you're so aware of what others think that you can't do what you want..
-you're not happy..
-and in the end, you lose everything without even trying to have it..
*'nuff said..

-i don't get it! i don't understand! this soo suxx.. why is that so?? it's really tough when people start to leave you hangin'.. it's even tougher to pretend that you don't mind.. sigh..

argh! shit! fcuk! sometimes, even if everything felt so perfect, it was just meant to teach you.. not to stay forever.. God knows everything.. and I leave it all up to Him.. so, no fret.. that's just it! dumped..

#changed..

2007-01-06T06:02:00.000-08:00

ok.. thnx to techaccess for fixing this shit.. another waste of time.. but i do like it! so.. i guess?? photoblogging?? new year pictures..
side ng house.. i dunno.. bakit may ganitong shot..
fireworks.. i lurve this.. fancy glitter like whatev..
taken hours ago.. see my stye?? left eye blind! stressed..fountain.. behind that fountain, xtian and carlo is to be found..=D
this was, uhh?? new year's celebration.. i was soo proud of myself coz i don't have anything on my face.. i really mean, nothing! even powder.. i have nothing coz my annoying stye hurts and i don't want it to be infected more or whatev.. hhmmnn.. still looking gorgeous.. hahahaha!! kumontra patay! i was in a pink polkadot headband.. hoping that this year would bring me luck.. haha! asa! i was called pink monster when we we're in the supermarket coz of my pink cap, pink shades, pink shirt and.. thats it! ehe.. stalker? i was in the car then at nakita pa rin ako ng epal na un.. hmp! whatever!

i'm planning to change my number.. argh! 2 reasons.. 1st, to get rid of that sucking ****boi mark.. 2nd, to get rid of uuhhmm.. those group messages coming from unknown people.. ehemm.. pae! i know you know what i'm talking about.. haha!! but, this sim, it has memories.. huu.. and, i have two people behind me with almost the same number.. ehe.. and i don't know if i'll inform him about this.. like, giving him my new number.. hhaaiii.. rude me.. pero diba, para wala na talagang reason magparamdam.. atleast it's valid.. get me? sigh..

"i only want you happy, even if it's not with me.."

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2007-01-04T21:18:00.000-08:00

i missed blogging.. uber!

-die stye!! die!! huhu.. i've suffered enough!! and i can't wait to be the 'ces' i want to be.. ehe.. like hello?? i greeted the year with a stye?? argh! i'll post my pic soon.. =D when the suckin computer is fixed na.. don't worry it's not grave.. it's just soo suckin annoying!! like, sooo much!! at uunahan ko na kayo.. hindi po ako nanilip!! di na ako maninilip ulit.. =D long story.. ehe..

-to free yourself from being the victim of lost "love", give yourself the time to unequivocally get to know and appreciate someone, allowing love to happen in it's own due course. Do not impulsively rush into a state of feeling in love. Seriously consider all of the factors that ensure a real and lasting love. Give this feeling time to develop. Only then, can you truly know that you are in love.
*hhmmnn.. onga! wag excited!! ehem!

-m-a-r-k!! i have 8 words for you!! I HATE YOU AND I DON'T LIKE YOU!! ikw nga!! *in-add na kta at sna mkta mo 'to at mabasa!* get the hell out of me freak!! huhu.. leave!! am i too rude?? well, bein in denial suxx so live a life! ****boi! *sigh*

-another mark.. ehe.. kua mark, scary pag my hangover.. jiguja na xe.. wehe.. =D

-dates to look ahead:
*jan 12- she's leaving.. so suxx.. as if my mggwa aq..??
*jan 8- upper household.. i miss my yfc freaks... =D
*jan 10- GA with the rest of yfcs.. nothin spexal.. uuwi lang ng late.. ehe..
*jan 14- pre-bday celebration with masku sa bicentennial.. hell yeah! can't wait!
*jan 19- buhbye sweet sixteen, hello life!
*jan 26- household with partner and members.. =D wiweet!
*jan 28- club praise.. same place.. same time.. different new people.. =D

-wee!! A-N-A-T-O-M-Y suxx!! my grades are run-of-the-mill.. fine.. but im not gratified.. hhaaii.. i need more vigor to thrive and survive.. woo..

-skul-sleep-study-tv-study-sleep-skul.. whatta boring routine!! i hate it! study na wlang pumapasok sa utak koo.. waa!! next week, iba na yan.. skul-sleep-net-tv-study?-sleep-skul.. haaaaii.. life.. 2007, please make my life worth living..

-im experiencing agony yesterday due to my very painful abdominopelvic?? not sure.. ehe.. shit! it soo hurts like hell!! anyway, thanks to alaxan for calming me.. how i wish alaxan could also cure my other pain.. then i'll be buying lots! lots! and lots of it!

cheerio!

nonsense shit..

2007-01-02T18:54:00.000-08:00

16 DAYS TO GO!!!!!!!!!

gift ko.. =D

"i don't know why we all hang on to something we know we're better off letting go.. it's like we're scared to lose what we don't even really have.. some of us say we'd rather have that something than absolutely nothing.. but the truth is: to have it halfway is harder than not having it at all.."

xmas party. yfc.

2006-12-28T05:10:00.000-08:00

haiy..alam m b ces ngcng aqoh..dhl npanagnipan kta..whoa ds cnt b! haha.. well ang panagnip ko e sishare qoh.. ngpnta daw ang couz qoh sa bhay namen, at dhl close kmeh nun, sbi nia pa2kila2 nia gf nia, at ng iharap na nia sken, gulat na gulat ako dhil ikaw ang girl!!! infairnes ngcng ako at nrealze qng na2nagnip lng pla koh.. infairnes din cute nman ang couz ko kaia bagay keo..haha..cge 2log na ulit aqoh..

>>that was the exact text message i got from a classmate last night.. haha!! whoa!! and "our" favorite lines kept playing on my mind.. "globe o smart?? single o taken??" hahahaha!! kiddin aside, ley! i know you miss me that's why you see me even in your dreamsssss! haha! wee!! (i can hear reactions.. ehe..)

>>imma mark this day coz this day has been my bestest year-ender.. t'was our so called Christmas Party in YFC and we went to this GK site somewhere in Sapang Bato.. swear! we went through a lotsa weird events.. "foundation day" (if you wanna know what foundation day is, click here! and click on that YFC North xmas party album..) we met lotsa people again.. of course! we had fun coz as usual, lokohan nanaman.. and of course, i was able to see eiron, jap and gox.. masku freaks. we were assigned to the games and we were all shocked to see that there are almost hundred families.. and were only expecting fifty.. fifty mothers with 10 children each.. ehe.. so instead of the game, we just gave away the prizes.. i was touched when this old lady approached us and said.. "maraming salamat sa inyo.. pagpalain kayo ng Diyos.. sana humaba pa ang buhay niyo para mas marami kayong matulungan.."
we were like.. "aaawwww.." how i wish i was super super duper duper rich so i could extend an arm to those kind of people.. but what can i do? i can only include them in my prayers.. ehe.. don't worry, a pharmacist earns much.. wait till that fateful day comes.. ehe.. there are also funny moments like that of "the dawn of the dead".. haha!! and i asked one kid, "maganda ba ako??" guess what?? he said.. "hindi! pogi ka!!" aarrgghh!! kati, gox, jap and even gids laughed their heart out!! huhu.. i was like, "bata? close ba tayo??" huhu tlga.. still.. i was in cloud nine.. kahit nasabihan akong "pogi" ng isang di kakilalang bata.. after sa GK site, we went to Clark Bicentennial park and kulitan, kwentuhan lan.. yep! bicentennial.. where that october 27 thing started.. damn! i missed that place!! it never changed except that it was kinda crowded compared before na solo mo talga yung place.. haha!! nwei, un.. uwi na after coz i need to catch up on some sleepin coz i slept at 3am kakaisip sa isang tao and woke up at 5 somethin.. but!!! gox went here pa sa house so un.. expect.. natulugan ko xa!! haha!! lubb yu gox.. ehe..

that's how my day went today.. it was one of the best.. kahit i'm still down in the dumps.. so suxx.. hhaaii..

curt..

2006-12-26T01:59:00.000-08:00

this is cute:

why do guys always have to say
"i'm going to court you now for you to be my gurl"

isn't it nicer to say..
"just love me now and be my gurl..

and i'll court you forever.."

-aawww.. that last line was nuff said..

there would come a time that we have to stop loving someone.. why?? not because the person started hating us but because the person is unintentionally making us feel worthless..

-should i take the sign seriously??? sigh..

*benchwarmers was a great movie.. try to watch it you guys.. you'll love it!
*pae! kindly inform me if you already got the chance of watchin the movie i was tellin you.. love me if you dare that is.. haha! help me decipher the ending of that shit.. =D
*that guy in red- your face is tattooed on my mind.. coz you resemble my ptj.. haha!thanks for adding a red color to my christmas eve.. haha! ehe..
*happy __th monthsary masku.. damn i forgot.. whatevr.. i know we're counting.. hhmmnn.. iloveyou soo much..
*im so in love with my nameless care bear that i'm alraedy losing my attention to yinee.. ehe.. =D i dunno if pae's suggestion is really a good name.. yohoo?? suggestion anyone??
*can't wait for new year.. bailey's is yum yum.. =D boozers on.. weee!!

"it's better to have NOBODY than somebody who is half yours, half there or doesn't want to be there, or is there and then suddenly disappears.."

xmas..

2006-12-24T09:25:00.000-08:00

to the extent that i can remember, this is the worst christmas i had.. this is the third christmas that i will be crying myself to sleep.. sumabay pa ang lecheng globe.. hhaaiii.. im glum.. i wonder if i will be meeeting the same christmas next year.. hhaaii..

"do you know that place between sleeping and awake?? that place where you can still remember dreaming?? that's where i'll always love you, that's where i'll be waiting.. "

blg blog blog..

2006-12-23T21:08:00.000-08:00

>> i was able to watch brokeback mountain and da vinci code last night despite of my strict schedule..(strict daw?) that caused me a mild headache im struggling with right now.. argh! love is a force of nature.. yea!! ehe.. iniyakan ko ung brokeback.. haha!! kosi's fault!! watevr! stupid mtrcb!! didn't they realize na pwede nga nmang mgka-copy ang video city..?? at nkaheram kme?? eerrr.. agen, kosi xe!! i hate borrowing at vc.. kya sasamahan mo qng mgblik!! errr!!!

>> i find this weird.. at the church.. bgla ko nlang naicip, _____. so, nanghingi ako ng sign, pg kinanta ung favorite song nmen na kinakanta rarely without lyrics, ggwin ko un.. shit. after 5 mins. bgla xang kinanta.. with the projector and stuffs.. putek! i was teary eyed nd i soo wana cry na.. andmi kong naicp dt tym!! and i was thinkin, bkt sa church pa?? may grace ba un?? hhaaiii.. ill give this a chance.. mihevoli..

>> SM nnmn ako later.. hhaaaiii.. me and my brother have this agreement xe na we should buy a gift for each other that should be real expensive.. and dun sa bibili ng cheaper than the other will give 500 bux (100 lan to dati, tinaasan nia..huhu!) dun sa nagbigay ng mas expensive.. challenging to.. i dunno what to give him.. suckin SM wla nmng fubu.. huhu! hhaiii.. goodluck sken.. nwei, ill share this 'nice to visit places sa SM.." ehe.. (aling!! sna mbasa mo to.. ehe..)
-shakeys.. y?? don't ask!! just go there!! the crew.. woohhooo!!
-french baker.. same.. look for someone..
-folded and hung.. look for that someone who is always in green..
-guess.. same.. pro minsan-minsan lan.. =D
-dept store.. sa appliances corner.. =D
-karate kid.. hahaha!! jimson!! nandun boypren ni joe.. =p
-dept store.. dun sa may skechers time.. minsan lan dn..
-body shop.. minsan..
hhmmnn.. yn lan naaalala q..

>>"i'll always love you.. deep inside this heart of mine i do..love you.. and i'll always need you and if you ever change your mind i'll still, i will love you.." i hate the feeling of bein taken for granted..

yea.

2006-12-21T21:29:00.000-08:00

ang mga sumusunod na litrato ay para kay pamela.. pae, di xa gnong visible xe napatungan na ung iba.. at ang panget ng penmanship koooo!! bsta yn na un!! last nyt sana.. pro bgla xang nwla.. ewan! bd3p nga e! ehe..

do i need to blog that slumber thingee we had at joe's?? is it not over-blogged by the two?? hhmmnn..they both have their new templates care of me, and i was intimidated to do the same.. unlucky me, can't find one.. anyway, i was just sooo happy coz apup bought me a huge blue care bear.. too bad the pink and the larger ones are off.. badtrip! ok lang.. atleast i own one na..

people are gettin lazy na ba or photobloggin is really in?? you guys are soo into photo bloggin na.. papahuli ba q?? ya lan, uploading pics from digicam will take me forever e.. so, click on this link nlan to check my photos.. our photos.. http://xes101.multiply.com.. use the augustine multiply account coz some of my albums are for contacts only.. aryt?? and im pretty sure na lalabas at lalabas din ung iba dun either sa blog ni joe or ni fhatz.. ehe.. =D

PAMELA:

missin masku..

2006-12-18T20:08:00.000-08:00

>> this is what boredom does to me.. hhmmnn.. i sooo miss norlyn and aaron!!! sila na lan di ko natatanaw at nararamdaman.. err..

>> slumber thingy.. nq! 2m nba tlga yun?? di ko pa sinasabi kei "pulis" kuno na si apup.. ehe.. nwei, ppyag nman un e.. =D im kinda excited xe sabog tayo nun 4 sure.. ehe.. nanganganib ang pagsisimbang gabi ko.. usually im out by 7 and 9:30 nq nkakauwi.. pno yn?? woo!

>> pae!! nq,, naisip ko lan.. na-complete mo na ang favorite lines mo sa if only dahil ba may subtitle ung dvd?? ehe.. =D wooohhooo!!!

>> i have this LIST of WANTS.. and i wanna share it to you xe, you know, christmas is the best time for giving.. so, ehem ehem..

* care bearS!!! that's with an "s".. as in plural!! ehe..
* set of new UV precision contact lens.. set.. not pair.. ehe..
* new pair of shoes.. that flats+pumps style.. wee..
* new colored i-pod nano.. mine suxx to the extremes!!
* those cute playdogs at SM dept. store.. promo extended until dec. 31.. =p
* lifetime supply of green cross isopropyl ROH with moisturizer.. lifetime!
* a box of or a dozen alcon opti-free express MPDS.. i want the huge one!
* 1 tree hill dvd season 1..
* lifetime supply of prepaid load..

yhiiee.. those are my WANTS.. see that santa?? thanks in advance.. =D

ok..

2006-12-16T20:31:00.000-08:00

"i just figured out blue's clues.. i just figured out blue's clues.. i just figured out blue's clues.. 'coz i'm really smart.."
-song ng dad ni kosi para kay kosi.. =D

>>nq.. sna nman e wlng rejection na mangyari.. at this very minute, pauwi na cguro parents ni kosi.. at ako ang super kinakabahan for him.. hhmmnn.. i'll pray harder this time..

>>as told by pae, un nga.. gagad mnood ng movies.. she made kwento bout her watchin at prng i felt the urge to watch "the notebook" like for the nth time again.. good thing may copy pa pla ko.. thnx to mum.. =p so un.. xmpre.. khit isang milyong beses ko pa ytng mpnood e di tlga ko titigil sa pg-cry.. sbi nga ni gox.."OA kna pg iniyakan mo pa yn!!" ewan.. can't help tlga e.. =D at nkalimutan ko png tanggalin contacts ko so ouch tlga after i cried.. =/

>>after simbang gabi:
guy1: hi ate! merry christmas!!
guy2: g*g*!! pulis tatay nian!!
guy1: merry christmas lang nman e!!
mee: kelan pa naging police si apup?? haha!!

tok: ate!! yung kanta noh??
frend ni tok: ate!! yung kanta noh??
ako: -blank-
tok: noh! mamya??
frend ni tok: noh! mamya??
ako: -blank-
frend ni tok: anu ba yn! ang sungit ng ate mo, di ako pinapansin!!
tok: epal ka kasi e!!
ako: oo nga!!

hahaha!!

>> i will choose jay-r over yeng to have the title xe di ko xa feel.. =p alang mkialam opinion ku yni.. =D

>> happee berdae to fhatz's preetiest pamangkin.. =D

>> may hangover pa ko sa the notebook.. *sigh* lucky the girl there..

>> shud i post a pic of those two little cute freaks?? ehe.. =D or yung video nlan?? wee! lurve em!

emo mee..

2006-12-14T20:38:00.000-08:00

Shattering moments make it hard to face the truth

Still you're there waiting for something

Wanting to feel still the same thoughts

Playing inside your head making you break down and cry

Wake up, reality bites

Can't move, just slide down and crash

'cause i am breakin' down

-wake up, mojofly..

>>in your 16 or 17 years of existence, or whatever your age is right now, nasabi mo na ba sa sarili mo na "this is the best christmas of my life!" or "this is the best new year of my life!" or "this is the best birthday i had!"..?? well then, good for you.. ME-never!! i never had a christmas or new year celebrated with my family.. na complete kami.. my dad used to celebrate his holidays sa pangasinan.. till now.. i don't even know why, eh yung 2 family nia nasa states na.. my mom nman, what i remember, before she left, is, tinutulugan lang nia ung xmas and new year,, and ate dhess, tok, tu wing and i would celebrate it by opening our presents, eat, kwentuhan tas tulog na.. i don't even remember if we use to attend the mass ba.. then, when my mom left, medyo my changes naman.. i make it a point to complete simbang gabi coz i believe na magkakatotoo talaga yung wish ko after the 9 days.. coz nagkatotoo nga yung wish ko once.. so yun.. then, gnun ulet, pguwin.. presents, eat, kwentuhan, tulog.. same routine.. ewan.. gnun ba tlga or kme lan?? ehe.. =p then new year, same routine din, isingit mo lan ung mga paputok effect.. takot ako sa mga ganun e, i only fancy fireworks and fountains.. ehe.. or minsan hanggang nood nlan tlga aq.. ehe.. haaiii.. birthday nman.. ewan.. di ko alam.. bsta alm ko tumatanda aq.. hhmmnn.. nwei, im still young, im only 16 and there are more years to come for me.. mlay ko bang after 10 yrs pla or 20 yrs maybe masasabi ko din na i had the best ______ ever! hhmmnn.. i wonder.. too bad di pamandin natuloy xmas party ng pharma.. kaya augustine!!! don't let me down!! hhaaaiii.. anyway, i don't want you guys to pity me, i just want you to value what you have now, what you are experiencing now.. yun.. yun.. yun..

>>happy feet is awesome.. haha!! huli nkme coz showing pa yta nun is last 2 weeks ago?? e ngyon lan may time e.. haha!! ang ccuutteee!!!! super!! i want to own a penguin.. lalagay ko nlang xa sa freezer.. weee!! ehe.. and i super had fun last night.. khit di natuloy "ang pagkikita".. i was experiencing hallucination na yta sa sobrng kaba, buti nlan joe, gox and jap went out with me, kahit HAP ang naghihintay sa akin.. smantalang sila e CF lan.. huhu.. kya i stayed up late ng hanggang 4:30am kaka-aral.. aral nga ba ginawa ko?? ehe.. =D and for that, i want to bid you guys a sweet sleep.. to me.. ehe..

sh!t

2006-12-10T23:11:00.000-08:00

i can't fathom what my feelings are at the moment.. i feel bad.. i feel disheartened.. so fed-up.. downcast.. blah blah.. and for some personal reasons, i can't tell.. i maybe making a biggie out of it or maybe overdramatizing what i heard, but! this is not the first time i felt the same damn thing.. i've been the same too.. you know, vaunting things off for the entire globe to know, yet, i know when to take a break and chew over my limitations.. haha!! i know im just overreacting.. i am! sheeting down my sentiments isn't a violation anyway! i don't even know if im upset or what, i think he just rubbed the wrong way.. this has been his diversion and if i get used to it, aarrgghh!! i don't even know what to do!! understand.. again?? well, if we reached that time, understanding is not the word for me.. but how could that be feasible if by merely telling him what i feel is not doable by me..?? *sigh* i think i have to live with it everyday.. everyday of my life.. and what i believe in is that eventhough we treat each other like as if, bhyuferhrjrigytufedyxrydwbvwigvotrhi.. i know that in the end, it is not him that nbfoprthbflkweuowgvmnzbfhegwiouvb.. why??? i just know it!! and as for now, ill just go with flow.. i know that im already hurting him indirectly.. but, what can i do if this is what i really feel dba?? i know that im hjgutdxutyojnve in my own way and if sooner or later everything's still gonna be the same, i may break that mnbvcasdfghoyrt.. and just tell him after a long time.. that is, if that long time will still work for us.. im not supposing nor settling scores.. i just feel like saying these stupid things.. coz i know that in due course, what i feel will recede.. back to the usual.. and what's worst is, this thing will happen again.. hhaaii nakoo!!! a very firm belief.. ewan!! i don't wanna be branded a "weirdo" like pae (ehe!) but what i'm doing at this instant makes me one..

"as for now, im gonna hear the saddest songs, and sit along and wonder..
and as for me, i wish that i was anywhere, with anyone.."

ala

2006-12-09T19:30:00.000-08:00

WHO DECLARED THAT ANGELES CITY IS NO LONGER A PART OF PAMPANGA?? wtf??!!because of that i'll be helping myself suffer from all those suckin chemistry and anatomy thing,, poor me..

SATURDAY:
>>cwts sh!t and still, people came to class.. except for pae who was absent and missed the chance of me and mtj's mini-conversation.. mtj is czar's cousin taking up med-tech.. you know him don't you?? hhmmnn.. math wizard and art-attack future host.. but! a bad smoker! anyway..

>>mr and ms university last night.. mr university wasn't so surprising at all coz it's expected.. "JC" won!! woohhoooo!! go lingit!! si mr talentado.. nakoooo!! and for ms university, well.. nursing xa.. but jasmine was the first runner up so we were like, who? who? who? but she won and ok.. as if.. and pawandeep was included in the.. the last 5 thing.. well, he looked good last night.. FHATZ!! yep!! si pawandeep!! yung sumagot ng.. "LOVE LIFE!!" haha!! ehe.. we pharma people are a bunch of talented and good looking freaks tlga.. ehem! and were proud of it! ehe.. zyron is worthy.. sayang! ehe..

FRIDAY:
>>kosi and aling went here sa house to pick me up and whatever.. nag-pictorial sila.. ehe.. we went to mimi's and had fun.. haha!! i learned to play the organ.. the wedding monarchy something and happy birthday.. woohhooo!! and before going home.. ala creme with timo..

>>im bored!! i need to study!! and i hate it!! but i should!! whatever!!

19 months and counting.. hcum oos uoyevoli..

ala muu..

2006-12-07T04:26:00.000-08:00

jenee.. =) what a very pretty girl.. i know you guys know her! iinnttssiikk!!! ehe.. dati, inuuto-uto q lan yn e.. tas ngyon, look at her!! ehe.. solo! is it in the genes?? =p

that is from the freedom wall.. it's not actually "freedom".. literally.. coz you have to pay for it!! hhmmnn..

STUFFS YOU DON'T KNOW BOUT ME: (maybe some?)

>>lightning and thunder are the two things i FEAR the MOSTest!!! i feel like im gonna be hit and striked so, anyone im with during feisty times of storm, unlucky you.. coz im gonna squeeze your arms like hell!! ask eiron for details.. he's been a victim.. ehe..

>> i have a "security blanket", as what others term it.. but, i prefer callin it my "blankie".. ehe.. i gave it a name, "angel".. coz it's a white soft thick somewhat like blanket that i used during my infancy.. i remember my mom giving it to me when she washed my stuff toys and i've got nothin to hug so she gave me that "blankie".. hitherto, im using it and is now permanently part of my heavenly forty winks..

>>i always keep a hanky under my pillow for unexpected crying moments.. it is before i sleep when im lost in thought and start to mull over things so i end up crying at times.. im really deep emo inside.. =D

>>i don't leave the house without my pink rosary.. ehe.. =p it serves as my armor wherever i go..

>>i have this habit of fixing my pillows before i sleep and i can't sleep without positioning them that way.. and i have over 9 pillows.. but! that was before.. in this day and situation xe, after i took my shower, i'd be dead to the world and i don't care anymore what's happenin around me coz what is far more important than anythin else is my sleep..

>>my favorite perk-me-up song is "you've got it all".. and pae hates this song.. i dunner, it slackens my senses.. and i love iit!!!

>>real friends rock!! and sham friends suck!! this is not a part of know-me-things already..ehe.. =D hell with you freaks!!

>>can't wait for the masku thing eiron said knina.. can't wait!!!

>>calvin!! aburi buri mu neh?? duh!! haha!!

eng 5..

2006-12-05T18:25:00.000-08:00

>>i have a crush on this 5th yr engineering stude that is exaggerately intelligent.. overly!!! he won this "regional" statistics quiz bee bein the CHAMPION.. and that is HIM alone! he also calculates faster than a calculator.. imagine pine-press mo palang sa calcu, alam na niya ang sagot.. and he is already on his 5th yr.. aside from his startling acumen, he also possess good looks.. but its not pretty obvious na he's on his 5th yr na coz he looks like a 16 or 17 yr old stude.. haha! yesterday was the cheerdance competition and i saw him that he's outrageously part of the cheerdance team of engineering whatever.. i was so kiliged and since Jad also is a part of their cheerdance whatever, that afternoon, i asked him some details and stuffs like that about that engineering stude who is, according to my source, a pure korean but born in the country, named joo yung or somethin but bein called "kuya bang".. he's not a patrick suarez kind of thing kaya bang, coz for that reason, i don't have any idea.. so, yun, i asked Jad, when suddenly, jad's seatmate, a girl na i think engineering stude din, told me that HE, "kuya bang", already has kids.. kidS.. i don't know if that is with an "s".. i don't know if he and his wife are married.. "tsismosa" ba?? sinasabi lang skin yn a! ehe.. so un, that cute intelligent guy is super taken na.. haha! and super madami din daw talaga my crush sknia, but, girls turn down pg nalalaman nilang may wife na xa.. ehe.. anyway, graduating na xa, like ni medtech 4 volleyball player number 11.. haha!! tsk! im sure ALING would be very interested visiting the school during our suckin U-days.. btw, solo, wanna come over pala?? ehe..

>>it's 19 days before christmas and 44 days left being a sweet 16 mee.. time flies real fast.. hhmmnn..?? will i be blah blah blah?? and blah blah blah the blah blah blah?? mm..

>>after school, jad and i went to SM pa.. imagine me?? after the fun run, nag-lakwatsa pa?? si jad xe e.. buti nlan kua manuel was game so sumunod xa.. haha! nag-commute lan xa,, and super di kami sanay na ang isang "kua manuel" ay nagcocommute.. ehe.. haha!! haha tlga!! di tuloy kme nahatid ni jad.. ehe.. =p un lan.. we saw g-ann, lou nd sheela din last nyt.. remember GM ni kaezel?? ok nman si lou alone e.. ehe.. =p un lan..

>>GO CAMP!!!! love ko CAMP.. and it's soo great bein part of CAMP!!! im tellin you.. so grreeaattt tlga.. ehe.. im not tellin you to shift courses pero, la lan.. masaya tlga.. ehe.. =D coz the CAMP people are mbabait..mtatalino.. lol.. and.. active?? haha!! ah bsta!! bein a CAMPer is uuhh?? no word can describe it.. ehe..

>>belated happeeeeee 1st legal monthsary to ka-masku eiron and norlin.. luuvv uu guyzz much!! mua!

ala mu let

2006-12-04T08:25:00.000-08:00

i want to blog something but my mind is blank and it's 12:30am on our clock(yn ung tama! d yn sa room q..).. i just want to blog.. my brain cells arent workin after i finished answering some pharmaceutical calculations.. (ang hirap ng dting pro twas easy lan.. ehe!) and!! i should be sleeping right now! i need to wake up before 5am because i need to be off to school at 5am or so.. and.. delayed nanaman ang globe..

random thoughts..

>>yhiee.. after 50 years.. ok na ulet doorbell nmen.. ehe.. i know how hard you guys are suffering outside the house, under the sweltering sun, when you pay me a visit or just simply ruin my room when you feel like to,, and advantage din sa part ko para di na maulit yung 1 hour akong naghintay sa labas and that is 1am na.. good thing ung mga adik kong fans are not around that time.. =p

>>happy birthday mom!! advance na pla.. haha!! she wants me to plan my debut already.. 17 plng po ako next month??!!

>>i need a list of the pharmacies near the place where i can do my on the job training this summer.. di sila excited.. eerrrr.. manson's?? mercury?? south star?? watson's??? (wish q lan..) they won't allow us inside the malls.. bd3p.. ehe.. =p bsta! visit me and pae wherever fate would bring us.. and we wont be busy for sure coz we will not dispense drugs nman e.. tagapunas lan ng shelves.. and plastic maker.. huhu.. a very unique intern awaits us.. haha!! yyiii.. our white uniform would be given justice then.. bsta! nxt sem.. goodbye a-line skirt!! hello pencil cut.. ehe.. =p

>>iii soo love nina's someday..
"Coz someday, someones gonna love me
The way, i want you to need me
Someday,someones gonna take your place
One day ill forget about you
You'll see, i wont even miss you
Someday, someday"

ala mu..

alu mu part 2

2006-12-02T01:43:00.000-08:00

wag pansinin ang mga litrato.. yan ay para kay lagitnay, pamela.. ehem! pae,, that's what im tellin you awhile ago.. =p and it's not the patrisha tayag kind of thing coz mine is better.. and not 'pukeable'.. =p

>>"If the rich could hire the poor to die for them, the poor would make a wonderful living"
-yiddish proverb

>>i came across this 'proverb' knina sa article nmen in cwts sh!t.. and i can't help but agree.. my dreams of bein the city mayor and painting the walls pink.. haha!! haha!! haha!! my first project is "Pinkang walls" as manel would always say.. ehe.. and PAE would make epal, interceding my plans.. khit kelan tlgaa!!!!

>>my friday night was uber F-U-N.. ehe.. we went to this car show thingee with bands and stuffs like that.. i remember my mum tellin me that she was mistaken and "labeled" a celebrity kuno coz of her car.. haha! im not into cars like her bsta id be happy sa PINK car that im wishing to own soon eventhough i know and im aware that its quite impossible.. why do i have to leave the country xe e.. suckin thing! anyway, back to what im saying.. we watched the bands.. and they are all so galing.. and i have the hots for this band called the 'mental floss'.. the lead guitarist is soo gwapoo.. and gling to play the guitar.. and again, gwapo.. pero he's taken na.. =p there are lots of goodlookin guys and gurls last night.. and i mean.. lots of goodlookin guys tlga.. too bad almost half of em are smokers.. kya im more into guys with brain than the looks.. coz looks are really deceiving.. ehe.. tutu yn.. so un.. and oh! the man-car theory pla.. you guys know that ryt?? there are lots last night.. and we saw manas.. andming raket nung batang un.. she's dancin der sa stage.. a bsta.. un na un.. ehe.. =p

>>im startin to love chicosci coz of miggy chavez.. ehe.. =p woohooo!!

>>i hate my brother's friends for calling me "ate".. and they're not even my brother!!! hell with them!! haha!! i hate them!!! errr..

>>ill be giving a talk to yfc tomorrow and i heard na ksma pa mga assumption people.. uh-oh! bhla na.. good luck to mee.. =p first time q to!! waa!! gudluck tlga sken.. huhu..

>>i dont know if ill be goin again later.. =D bka d nnmn ako mrinig at 1 hour maghintay sa lbas ng gate.. at maiwan ang bag ko sa lbas.. at mag-panic the next day.. huhu! and i hate san mig draft!! ehe..

>>hi to catherine vino simbahan.. also known as "kati" kuno.. =D iLL post our pic nxt tym.. =D wg mo craan skittles ko sknilaa!!!! ehe..

xao!

HAPEEE BERDAE INA!!!!!

ala amu

2006-11-29T06:51:00.000-08:00

eku balu bakit manasakit ku.. mabwibwisit ku at manasakit ku kahit balu kung enaman dapat.. makabwicit, eku bisang gumanti saka ala namang reason e.. kahit din naman aku meging unfair peru eku tlga apigilan malungkot.. minsan aicip ku na ariyan na ini, kasi ali naman mag-work out ini.. pero buri kupang try kasi balu ku kaluguran tmu ing isat isa..(?) sana pwede pa ini.. ala mu, ini mu ing afifeel ku..megdrama kumu..

pix ni alice

2006-11-29T06:42:00.000-08:00

AYAN!!! POSTED BY REQUEST!! para dun sa gustong makakita na di pinanood khit paulit ulit aqng nireremind sa commercial sa etc!! >=(

alice is #10.. nd dt girl is #9.. ehe.. michelle king look alike..ung gurl in red.. alice is pretty here.. here.. =p

daig pa ang JS.. haha.. wla wla wla.. wla tyong JS!!
dt girl is si #13.. at dun sa ngttnong,, yep! xa ung sumgot ng "im proud to be _ _ _ _ _ _" dont wanna humil8 her.. =p
masaya ka na cguro?? =p go confucius!!!!

alice i love..

2006-11-26T02:35:00.000-08:00

>>ALICE won!! wooohoooo!! though she may not have that ms. chinatown title, still, she will always be that very eminent ms. confucius that would constantly bewilder our ingenuous minds.. weh! how i wish the q and a was an on the spot math problem solving.. im sooo effin' sure that she will get an A on that!! ehe.. =p soo proud of her.. ehe..

>>my x-men fantasies rushed back after watching x-men 1.. haha! i wanna be a mutant and my superpowers would be that i could transform into anything!! and i mean anything!! haha!! friends and classmates can attest to that! haha!! or maybe a combination of jean and storm's.. and kitty (spelled by jap).. weee!! then i want a friend whose powers are like mystique's.. id ask him/her to transmute like sam milby or maybe champ.. haha!! nuff of all my peculiar, outrageous, out-of-the-way mind's eye.. haha!! i should get back to work.. =D

busy days..

2006-11-25T20:49:00.000-08:00

mee.. takin advntage of that thing! yea.. that thing!

WEDNESDAY:

>>what i can rmmbr is.. i brushed up for our anatomy sh!t quiz the next day with an extreme 70 items identification and enumeration type of test.. the power of redbull workin on my brain cells and facing the aftermath the day after.. this day, we also unexpectedly got the 4 huge boxes.. =p happy all of us..

THURSDAY:

>>the test was cancelled.. twas moved on MONDAY.. after I spent my night-slash-morning reviewin chapters 1&2.. argh!! well in actual fact that i have the whole weekend to study!! huhu.. this day was also the battle of the bands.. and CAS won.. congrtulations to kua tet agen.. =D

FRIDAY:

>>i love this day coz we won the dance competition.. CAMP won!!! wooohhooo!!! CHINA roxx!! && i saw all of em.. bsta!! haha!!

SATURDAY:

>>NSTP class again.. spelled as b-o-r-i-n-g.. and we are with the medtech people.. hhmm.. PE meeting with jasmine.. haha!! screw our meeting! weird things happened.. ehe.. =p then, YFC planning in the afternoon at ate nica's place.. i soo love their house coz its a doll house colored pink.. =p and i wore pink!! and i have this pic captioned "camouflage sa gate".. haha!! date with kati aftrwards.. we discovered that ala creme's rootbeer float will make you quiver.. ehe.. =p find out why!

SUNDAY:

>>im sick.. im sick.. im sick.. huhu! and we ddnt go to church.. if not because of this unnerving feeling maybe i had the chance to hear the mass.. err.. and again.. go over my anatomy book.. oh! and watch alice today on RPN at 4pm later..

greetings!! greeting!! greetings!! >>belated apee berdae calviin!! and to all your twin!! haha!! advance apee mantsari masku!! mua mua! advans pee berdae mumi!! and advans pee berdae ina.. =p

2006-11-23T09:42:00.000-08:00

yhie.. athe dhess and i were cleanin and somewhat like fixin my things in my "spaceless" room while getting our hairs curled, haha! then we saw mum's stuffs.. we saw a "love letter"she made for apup.. it was typewritten pa nga.. and i mean, typewritten.. the use of a typewriter.. ehe.. =D it mainly talked about her forbidden love dw for apup.. and yea,, tok nd i are forbidden fruits.. wehe.. twas sweet.. deep words.. D-E-E-P tlga.. i wonder why xa na-fall ky apup thnkn na she's the 3rd na.. tsk.. dnt wana be like mum.. hhmmnn,, nd she's tellin me na dt before.. haha.. yea.. i know.. awareness here..

i was memorizin nd suckin studyin anatomy last nyt.. memorizin d human's body regions.. like patellar, axillary, brachial, supraclavicular.. soo effin weird suckin words that conquered my brain cells and now!! the test was postponed.. xet!! after q magpuyat?!?!?! we were all feelin so mixxed up na knina.. haha.. i love pharm1a.. haha.. bsta. bsta,,. cultural tomorrow.. hopin the best for CAMP.. =D

congrtz pla keii kua tet.. CAS.. they won the band competition.. yhiiee!!! CAMP nLan sa cultural.. =D

pee betdae calvin! letter C q..

crush..

2006-11-20T09:08:00.001-08:00

i miss YOU na..
i miss your pang-aasar and pang-aaway to mee..
i miss the times.. haha! mua! <3u!!

crush..

2006-11-20T09:08:00.000-08:00

i miss YOU na..
i miss your pang-aasar and pang-aaway to mee..
i miss the times.. haha! mua! <3u!!

nuthin..

2006-11-19T03:17:00.000-08:00

&&you know what you guyz, imma share somethin to ya, i was holdin my brother's fone and in the gallery, i saw my picture.. i dunno if you call that caption but it goes like this, "ganda ng ate ko neh".. isnt that not just the sweetest thing?? aaawww.. and dont worry brother, since your ate is pretty, u r also hell of a goodlookin boy.. ehe..

&&i did something good today.. and that is, drop everyone on my friend list a testimonial.. those whom i only know personally.. yihee!

&&tomorrow.. cf class.. my crush-life is at stake.. *pray hard*

boxing..

2006-11-18T21:21:00.000-08:00

stupid pay-per-view!! (i think it is apup's fault)

why?? i want to study talaga.. and you know, memorize those freakin conversion thingies sa PHARM CAL.. NGUNIT!!! dahil sa kaingayan na nanggagaling sa labas ng aming tahanan.. garage.. d ako mkpag-concentrate!!! err!! ang ingay!! our house turned movie house was loaded.. haha.. i hate it!! at nilabas pa talaga ang tv! and as of 10 minutes earlier, i already received 11 txt messages and ehem! 1 phone call tellin mee dt he won.. i know you know who is he..grbe! i dnt need to watch to know if he won, i can tell by the noises people make outside the house.. haha.. i can hear their screams and applauses.. haha.. and i hate it!!

enuff of those stuffs that made my temper go like whoa again.. im feelin not so normal.. haha.. (i can hear side comments.. haha!) i want to do something likeable.. something that will make me happy and contented.. goin to the mall and watching movies are not my type of fun today.. i have no choice but to stay here at home and study.. and study.. and study again.. and maybe, watch tv..

i was lookin for some pharmacy stuffs and found this quote..

"A man's nature runs either to herbs, or to weeds; therefore let him seasonably water the one, and destroy the other."

-Francis Bacon

im insane!

pix

2006-11-18T05:43:00.000-08:00

suckin P6 book.. momentum..
my NSTP classm8s.. at bkt mtino ang chairs nd tables?? PS yn.. ps-402 to be exact.. iiyyhh..
this pic soo proves that we, pharma studes are soo studious.. haha!! dtz maine, rechel, joar nd shaine.. 2/4 of em shiftd!!
my PE grupm8s nd frnds.. i took dz pic nd,, wondrin wtz wit those suckin numbers worn arwnd dyr neck?? nuthin!! sumthin to make us all look stupid.. argh! im soo pissed nd furious na tlga.. no konek..
we were stranded sumwer in.. wer xe?? bsta dulo ng pampanga.. candaba pampanga.. yfc people from north..
dtz eiron in mud suckin green color nd mark from yfc mabalacat.. people are raisn their hands to the tune of everyone's favorite song,. one way..
dtz my baby YINEE nd duh?? mee.. she's soo cute, adorable and pink!! see my pink nail?? la lan.. it complements yinee's color.. hehe.. yea, complement..

>>$%^&*&;^#@#%^*&^$@@^&&%$@$^&^%#$*())*^%$#@@$%^#@!@#%&(*)(&&%%#@#$%^&*^%!@#$%^&*^^$#@@%%&&^$%@#@&^&

I HATE HER!!!!!!!
and SHE'S REALLY GETTIN INTO MY NERVES!!!!!!

haha!! stupid blogger wont cooperate!! i hate this!!

>>watch ALICE tonight on dt channel 7 late show.. i f*ckin forgot the show's title..

2006-11-17T04:12:00.000-08:00

Yakap Sa Dilim
Orange & Lemons

i
Sandal mo muna ang ulo mo sa unan
Katawan mo ay aking kukumutan
Mga problema'y iyong malilimutan
Habang tayo'y magkayap sa dilim
Huwag mong pigilin kung nais mapaluha
Pakiramdam mo sana'y guminhawa
Kung gusto mo ay mag-sigarilyo muna
Bago tayo magkayakap sa dilim

Chorus:
Heto na ang pinakahihintay natin
(oh)heto na tayo magkayakap sa dilim
O kay sarap ng mga nakaw na sandali
Habang tayo'y magkayakap sa dilim
Habang tayo'y magkayakap sa dilim...
(repeat chorus)

ii
Halika na at sumiping na sa kama
Lasapin natin sarap ng pagsasama
Sa 'ting pag-ibig tayo ay umasa
Habang tayo'y magkayakap....
Sa dilim

=> im lovin this song xe,, la lan.. sumthin funny, lyrical, stupid and sumthin that wud tickle one's imagination.. in a way.. (lam ko mga iniicp nio e..) this song is usually part of my morning routine together with 'panalangin', 'nothin in this world' and 'waltz'.. ehe.. i dunnoe.. im just a sucker for music and.. i love champ.. =D

=> im hatin the people hus using friendster or mybe myspace as an outlet for their "outlawed" stuffs like,, uuhhh?? pictures.. its just soo suckin foul ,repulsive nd soo wide of the mark to be viewed by lots of people.. like duh?? illicit!!! they should be banned.. *true*

=> im losin my temp to these two people nd i hope they can feel it.. haha.. i want you guys to meet my baby.. her name is yinee.. she is a pink care bear,, nd i think she is baby hugs.. im soo mad about care bears nd i adore them.. ehe.. =p i want the dreamy blue one.. i forgot,, bsta the one on it's tummy is a moon.. ehe..=D and i am formally announcing that im already all set for accepting gifts for xmas and my birthday.. =D nwei, bact to the care bear thing.. iLL post her pic here pag sna binalik na ni PATRICK SUAREZ ang aking bluetooth device.. =p nd i just bought her a dress.. la lan.. share q lan.. =D bsta!! *keen on care bears*

=> i want that sam milby smart poster thing na xmpre.. nailed on posts.. ill put it sa ceiling ng room q.. ehe..=p and again, im remindin you guys.. xmas nd my birthday.. can u feel it?? ehe..

pamela.. the trivia about orlando bloom that i promised you sucker!!
>>did you know that he can't pee and talk at the same time?? ehe.. poor boy!! haha.. weee..i think JEROME LAGITNAY can!! hahahaha!!

>>i hate i hate i hate i hate sumthin i dont know!!

>>hu sed life was fair?? it nver was!! life suxx!!
-sir PE..
>ehe.. i object!!

*o kay sarap ng mga nakaw na sandali.. hbang tayo'y mgkyakap sa dilim.. =p*

CF class..

2006-11-13T07:53:00.000-08:00

one morning.. in the CF class of pharma 1A..
they were playin pinoy henyo,,

she: tao?
groupmates: hndi!!
she: bagay?
groupmates: hndi!!
s: bagay??
g: oo!! pwede!!
s: lugar??
g: *laughter*
s:nakikita sa loob ng simbahan??
g:oo!! pwede!!
s: statue?? saints??
g:hndi!!
s:nakakain??
g: oo!! pwede!!
s: ostia??
g: hndi!!
s: gnagmit ko??
g: oo!!
s: rosary??
g: *laughter*
s:*thinks deeply*
g: ano? bilis!! go!!
s: color brown??
g:*laughter*
s: *thinks deeply ulet*
g: bilis! bilis! *panic on their faces*
s: holy water!!!
g: mlapit na,,
s: nkakain??
g:oo!! oo!!
s: HOLY WATER!!!!
g: mlapit na!!
s: HOLY?????
g: *super exagge laughter na ito!!*
s: WATER!!!!!!!!!!

and after that humiliating incident.. classmates now call me "HOLY"..

i dont care!! i scored 2 points for the group.. gaining a total of 9/10 which is the highest!! haha!! f-u-n! i hate logic!!!

2006-11-11T23:28:00.000-08:00

14 deep questions that will really tell you something..

1. What is more difficult for you, looking into someones eyes when you are telling someone how you feel, or looking into someones eyes when they are telling you how you feel?
> for mee.. lookin into someone's eyes tellin how i feel.. i can't do it to anyone!!

2. Think of the last time you were REALLY angry. WHY were you angry? Do you still feel the same way?
> i was angry because of too much jealousy.. i don't feel the same but everytime it hits my mind, i was like aarrgghh!!!

3. You are on a flight from Honolulu to Chicago non- stop. There is a fire in the back of the plane. You have enough time to make one phonecall. Who do you call? What do you tell them?
> my family maybe.. ill tell them that i love them, inform everyone that i'll die na.. and take care of their selves..

4. You are at the doctor's office and he has just informed you that you have approximately one month to live. Do you tell anyone/everyone you are going to die? What do you do with your remaining days? Would you be afraid?
> iLL teLL them of course, im sure special treatment aq.. ehe! iLL spend the rest of my days with my love ones.. im afraid to die of course pro i wont be afraid of my situation..

5. You can have one of the following two things: trust/love. Which do you choose? Why?
>T-R-U-S-T.. aside from it's the foundation of everything, when you TRUST, you LOVE.. but when you love, it's not sure that you trust..

6. You are walking down the street on your way to work. There is a dog drowning in the canal on the side of the street. Your boss has told you if you are late even once more, you are fired. Do you take the time to save the dogs life? Why or Why not?
> if you happen to see this for real, will you really save the dog?? i think iLL just ask for help then rush na sa work.. ehe..

7. You are unfaithful to your spouse/significant other. Do you tell him/her? Why or Why not?
> in the process, i wont tell xmpre.. pro ill tell then.. pro teka!! in the first place, faithful nman aq a.. =D

8. Your best friend confesses that he/she has feelings for you more than just friendship. He/she is falling in love with you. What do you do/say?
> duh?? *speechless* ehe..

9. Think of the last person who you know that died. You have the chance to give them 1 hour of life back, but you have to give up one year of yours. Do you do it? Why or Why not?
> i will of course.. pero, i dont really know someone close who just died recently..

10. Are you the kind of friend that you would want to have as a friend?
> of course!! i know myself as a friend and.. bsta! ehe.. (wuii, getz q xa.. logic 2!! haha!)

11. Does love = sex?
> stupid question!! no!!

12. Your boss tells your co-worker that they have to let them go because of work shortage, and they are the newest employee. You have been there much longer. Your co-worker has a family to support and no other means of income. Do you go to your boss and offer to leave the company? Why or Why not?
> mm..?? i dunno.. i wont be workin in a company anyway.. ehe.. maybe??

13. When was the last time you told someone HONESTLY how you felt regardless of how difficult it was for you to say? Who was it? What did you have to tell the person?
> can't hardly remember..

14. What would be (or what was) harder for you to tell a friend, you love them or that you do not love them back?
> you do not love them back.. is this not a friendly love??

=>>i just heard the news from a friend about her recent situation right now and i'm sooooo damned surprised!! well, actually, i SHOULD no longer be surprised coz i know for a fact that it's quite not impossible.. but!! it's not what i expected!! ya.. we talk about the same stuffs before considering that it is only a joke!! hell obviously were wrong!! and i think she can't back out right now though she have choices.. and im still convincing her to the right thing.. hhaaiii.. no matter what decision you make.. i hope this will be a lesson for you.. love you so much girlfriend!!

=>>an unknown kid is in the house!! and she's soooo adorable!! makes me wanna say that I WANT A BABY SIS OR BRO!! now na!!!

=>>thank you sarah!! haha!!

my weekends suck!! but limewire so roxx because i have the songs im lovin right now that revamped my ipod.. and oh! no more doubled songs!! yey!!

*i want to skip the xmas and my birthday.. =(*

thursdeii..

2006-11-09T06:07:00.000-08:00

God knows how blissful i am today..(uhh, pae, april, tol and clayne know too!) aside from the known fact that i woke up early this morning to see an appealing face on the mirror.. (mag-react patay!) and the reason is found in 3 letters.. P T and J.. i know some can get the picture.. ya! that's the reason why im quite losin my saneness.. ehe!

Medically speakin, i wish those three letters could convey my message efferently so that my hypothalamus could absorb everything and put it into emotion.. and my DREAM!! dreams do tell us somethin.. haha!!

-ding marasigan i love.. exaggeration aside.. basta i feel cooties when i know na _bsta!_ like kanina.. haha!! thnx much to tol nd clayne.. waa!! haha!! i love my lab gown.. =D

>>ADVANCE HAPPY BURDAE KITTY!!! iloveyousoomuch!!!

>>ADVANCE 18th dn.. mua!

inet..

2006-11-07T21:29:00.000-08:00

wonderin?? i just love the shot of 'em.. who would have thought that they will end up together dba?? like hello?? don santos?? prng it's like.. *now were back together, together.. i wanna show you.. my heart is oh so true..* ehe!

and the latest couple.. you-know-who.. eiron nd norlin.. it's no biggie na to us maybe.. xe we see they're affection for each other nman e.. (PDA!) pro.. it's official!! and bein part of the masku.. i can say that uhh?? it is somethin to commemorate.. prng triumph,, gnun! and that fateful day was november 5.. we are together pnmn dt day,, well some of us.. noh joe?? karate kid is the exact place where me, fhatz, gox nd jeni received that txt msg that says: 'yes guys! tpos na suffering ko!! i love you guys!! sa wakas!! SINAGOT NA AKO NI NORLYN!!!!! yun lan.. thnx sa time knina nd nkita nd nkasama ko nnmn kyo..' those were not the exact words from eiron's txt pro it sounds alike na rin.. i asked them nga e.. 'ano endearment nio??' no response.. ehe!
LOGIC!!! the teacher is.. cool. yeah! cool. he is an AMAZING shud i call him prof?? i dunno.. the rest is history.. i mean, he THINKS.. logically talaga!!!! perfectionist?? nah! punctual lang dw!! i was somewhat stunned when he said na,, he gives a quiz na answerable by a yes or no question only.. and it's up to you if you get all or nothin.. damn! thinking skills.. thinking skills.. thinking skills.. i need you to help mee..
goodluck to ALL who will be taking up LOGIC!! especially to PAMELA DIZON.. =D

xao!

e-browse..

2006-11-06T22:57:00.000-08:00

>>bored.. uhh?? computer unfixed.. sched suxx.. HUMAN ANATOMY suxx.. ORGANIC CHEM suxx.. and!! the BOOKS!!!! they all suck!!!!! (noel is here.. and aika!! haha!! share q lan.. PAE!! EPAL!!)

Caught Up In the Rapture of Love
Anita Baker

When we met, i always knew
I would feel the magic for you
On my mind constantly
In my arms is where you should be
I love you here by me, baby
You let my love fly free
I want you in my life for all time

[chorus:]
Caught up in the rapture of love
Nothing else can compare
When i feel the magic of you
We stand side by side
Till the storms of life pass us by
Light my life, warm my heart
Say tonight will be just the start

I love you here by me, baby
You let my love fly free
I want you in my life for all time

Caught up in the rapture of love
Nothing else can compare
When i feel the magic of you
The feeling's always new
Caught up in the rapture of you
I love you here by me, baby
You let my love fly free
I want you in my life for all time

Caught up in the rapture of love
Caught up in the rapture of love

>>i love you!!! duh??

web suxx..

2006-11-02T21:42:00.000-08:00

yyii.. im back?? for a moment or two.. see?? you know what's slaying me right now??

NO TV!!
NO COMPUTER!!

thank God an ipod and speakers were invented..

pro hell no!! im stiLL bored to tears.. and i think this is my last entry before the suckin classes start..

wer am i ryt now?? a frnd's place.. (curious neh?)

YESTERDAY was not MY DAY though i already got my pin money.. SERIES OF VERY UNFORTUNATE EVENTS nga nmn tlga.. i know JOE could bear witness to that..

i got a new haircut and iLL make kwento this experience at david's..
joe was.. ano xe?? nagpa-RELAX yta ng hair?? tma ba?? ehe.. so i have to wait.. thinkin what service ang pwedeng tapatan ng matagal niang pagpapa-relax.. i dont wana devirginize my hair xe and i know services for hiar devirginization lan ang pwdng ktapat ng tgal ng RELLAAXX!!!

so.. haircut and manicure at david's.. eerr.. na-scan q na yta lhat ng magazines dun d pa xa tappoooss!!!

pauwi nkme when joe told me this thing and NA-CONSCIOUS tlga q!! an asset could be worst than you think.. ehe..

my weekends will be fully sacrificed for YFC coz we have this retreat thing and all the household and execom heads are the participants.. wee!! i hope my PARTNER.. ehem! JAPEE will fetch me sa bahay early in the morning tomorrow ng di late!! *asa*

SHE'S LEAVIN.. she's leavin mee.. *sob*

stupid thoughts..

2006-10-31T20:47:00.000-08:00

STUPID RANDOM THOUGHTS..

"it was just a dream".. phrase that i uttered to shrug off the nightmare i had last night.. though i watched SAW before i slept, my dream was not about scary freaky halloween stuffs.. it's about uhh.. say, some life experiences that is happening?? or might happen.. An article i read from the interenet says that dreams are magical things. They give us glimpses, usually unbidden, into our past, present and future. They reflect our hopes, desires and fears. They reveal mysteries, give lessons and grant us messages from our highest guidance. The only problem is that we are not always versed in the healing work of dreams. From a psychological perspective, dreams are a place where the various parts of our psyche explore ideas, work out issues and interact with each other. *sigh* It was really just a dream.. Life still goes on.. how many brothas fell victims........ blah!
Rap nd i watched OPEN SEASON yesti and bein the good cousin i am.. (well..??) xmpre, it's my treat.. i saw ARVIE(chem lab student assistant) sa QUANTUM.. coz u know.. kids.. quantum.. getz?? and he saw me too.. he's looks says: "ito ung pharma student na nakabasag nung acid-base buret a! ang gnda nia!".. (kumontra patay!) so un.. pg nkkta q xa naaala2 q ang khiya-hyang experience na un.. nkkhya sa groupmates q.. ehe..
people are in the cemeteries right now.. and i'm at home right now with the usual routine net-tv-net-tv-net-tv.. ive nver been into a cemetery since i was little.. relatives who passed away are dwellin xe sa pangasinan pa yta? or manila?? see?? im not even sure.. ehe.. and im pretty sure na my fone will be flooded with the same group messages from lotsa people who share their grave experiences.. (mala-diary-kayzel-like).. tsk! zZzZz..
someone i love and care for (dont ask.. il tel u prsnly) ran away from their home and it hurts hearin from her that she doesn't need my help when all i can give is a prayer.. i don't know what entered her mind when she decided to court disaster..with only few bucks left and with nowhere to go, still she wants to sail close to the wind.. and i can't hate her right now..
spotlight on this..

>>Love has no room for selfish people who think only of themselves. If we have been to busy with our work, have been kept by our distorted priorities then it's about time that we stop for a while and think about the people who we might have stepped on and taken for granted. Let us not wait too long to appreciate those who have unselfishly given it to us for all that may be left tomorrow are just the bitter and cold memories of someone who loved too much but was never loved enough..

i hate some stupid jerks on friendster who would message you askin if you could add them up??? like hello?? what is the purpose of leavin one's e-add dba?? i made mine exclusive na nga to lessen the adding up of dont knows.. and those freakin people like m-a-r-k who.. bsta!! and i hate those freakin chain messages with catchy titles on them.. looks good on the outside but rotten on the inside.. yyiihh!!! what do you get from that ba?? kainis! ehe..
snuff err i mean enuff of d dramas na nga.. this entry is way too long nnmn.. i just want a new color of nail polish and ditch my pink nails.. ehe.. my cbox is open for suggestions.. mua!

>i don't wanna make an entry for tomorrow so.. iL be postin it here na.. ADVANCE HAPEEE BDAY NOEL.. the guy hu once owned my.. and still owns it.. my ball.. ehe.. PEE BERTDAI.. im sure uulan nnmn ng redhorse & ka-maniacan nian.. (sanib ni joe.. ehe..)

RevUp RevUp Central Luzon!!

2006-10-30T20:14:00.000-08:00

"Behold, I make all things new." Rev. 21:5- the theme of the 2nd Regional Conference held in Bulacan. After 6 years, YFC Bulacan was finally called to host the ReCon again on the 28th and 29th of October at Bulacan Agricultural State College in Pinaod, San Ildefonso, Bulacan. (haha!! ang formal! prng hi-news! yuckness!!) nwei, so.. un nga..tis my first time to attend ng yfc recon.. hello?? wla pa nga qng 1year sa yfc e.. so un.. exciting sa bus.. ehe.. dumaan kme sa San Roque Bulacan kung saan, na-experience nmen ang mtinding horse back riding sa bus,, and in the middle of the journey..

eagleman mackoi: wow!! tingnan niyo yung puno nila may dahon!! (with super amazement on his face!!)

at di pa nagtatapos jan ang pagka-amaze ni kuya mackoi.. nung naglalakad na kami papunta sa covered court..

eagleman mackoi: wow!! tingnan niyo yung daga dito, may sungay.. sa pampanga hinuhuli lang yn.. dito, sinasakyan.. astig!!! (he's referng to a carabao!)

7 provinces.
1 region.

Bulacan.
Pampanga.
Tarlac.
Bataan.
Zambales.
Aurora.
Nueva Ecija.

There were several competitions held to uplift the camaraderie between delegates from all over Central Luzon. Competitions like Gag, Battle of the Bands, Dance Competitions, Acapella, Cheerdance, Basketball, Volleyball and Badminton...

Pampanga won the seniors basketball game (champion), juniors basketball (1st rnnr up), volleyball (champ), badminton (champ), cheerdance (1st) and the special award na most number of delegates.. Pampanga, I think.. more than 200 delegates.. yihee!!! gnyn kme ka-active..

Bataan won the Gag competition and they are so galing.. haha!! Tarlac Band was also sooo super galing coz they have their own reggae version of ako'y sayo, ika'y akin.. haha.. super ganda!!! and uhhmm.. nu pba?? Tarlac and Bataan drummers.. soo effin good.. and the Nueva Ecija dancers.. they are so galing.. lalo na yung lead dancer na if he only resembles wade robson, haaii nq!!! too bad he resembles.. calvin engineering.. (pae! naiimajin!! wuuii!!) Pampanga band was soo mgaling dn.. PAENG ni Gaux is sooo gling sa i dunno if bass un or lead?? bsta.. the jumping thing is soo kakabana.. ehe!

aling's awaited moment.. ehe!
>>there were 2 from Bataan, 2 from Tarlac, 1 from Pampanga and 1 na i dunno from where.. We met different lotsa people from these provinces.. And it also proved that Pampanga people are so arte talaga.. haha!! no! arte is not the term.. xe we were asked to roam around, make libot and meet the people from these provinces.. tas all of them are doin that tas kmeng Pampanga we were standing lan.. haha! so people think na cguro we are so prng ewan?? haha! i have a crush from Bataan.. haha!! ktapat nmen cla ng room... la lan.. share q lan.. haha! tas drz 1 guy from tarlac na nka-jersey na FEU na super kmuka ni errr.. i forgot . d name.. bsta celebrity.. ehe! bsta. bsta. un..

pauwi nkme and we rode the same bus.. nsa my windo aq.. errr... nman! my hhaaiirr!! ehe.. nwei.. bgo kme umalis sa bulacan state univ..

kimpot: kuya!! kuya!! (in panic) ung gulong!!! bilog!!!
all: aaawww.... pot! pot!

ina told me na madadaanan dw nmen bhay nla so she told me to watch out for it.. baliuag, (i dunno the spellin..) near pulilan.. haha.. nkatulog aq.. ehe.. pro i thnk we went the wrong way kya d q rn nkita.. sori toti!

it was 4pm na yta and we wer in Candaba Pampanga.. isng maliblib na lugar ng kami ay bglang nasiraan ng npaka high tech at modern na bus.. you get what i mean ayt?? so un.. hntay.. hntay.. hntay .. for 10 yrs.. den.. my dumtng na sskyn.. 1st batch muna.. hnty.. hnty.. hnty.. hnty.. aftr 10 yrs ulet.. so 20 yrs.. kme nmn.. 2nd batch.. err.. ktabi q c kuya yayo nd he is sooo ingay... ehe.. *peace* pro nkasleep pdn aq.. at!! ncraan nnmn kme,, liblib na lugar nnmn sa ARAYAT!! at d lan liblib.. madilim pa.. so tinulog q nlan.. pg gcng q.. aun! umaandr na.. yehhee!! hhaaiii.. pg uwi ko.. superknock-out!! tulog nq by 9pm cguro nd i woke up at around 10 am na.. haha!! pno nmn xe.. 2 hrs lan tulog q sa bulacan.. 1 hour nga lan yta e?? err.. (adik mga tao sa kaka- boom tarat tarat!!) yii!!

i learned a few things.. always bring ur own toiletries like shampoo, toothpaste etc.. good thing the diff provnces wer kind enuf to share some with us.. haha!! next is, to bring the airbed,, no matter how big it is.. in d end, ul be thankful that u brought it.. trust mee!!! bring a huge mirror.. own snacks.. own blanket.. kht wlng pillow.. towel will do.. haha!! based on my own xperience.. bsta un!! andmi q ng nkwento.. umabot kya kyo sa part na 'to?? ehe.. happy halloween u guys.. weehhee!!

P.S.
thnx to ate ellaine, ate jade, ate nica nd eiron for takin good care of me while were there.. muahxz!! finally! i raised my hand na sa worship..coolness huh?? did i pass?? ehe.. at last! at last! bliss!! bliss!! bliss!!

HAPPY 22nd BIRTHDAY KUUAA JAMES!!!!!!
pengeng ticket sa concert niyo..ehe! mua! mua! mua! lurves u!!