Friday, June 09, 2006

i miss d old fridays..

i want to acknowledge these two people who uncomplainingly accepted me.. the real me.. ehe! kua nd tots.. thnx!! love u sooo much guyz!! hhmmnn.. that lead me to thinkin nah,, bkt xa dn rn xa ung forgive and forget.. d rn xa ung no questions asked.. second day plng pumyg nah xa.. sbgy.. our case was different.. mas mlalim ung ngwa q sknia.. la lan.. 10 nah xe bukas e.. *tnx for invitin me fhatz.. atleast kht pno.. hhmm.. un.. i dont know if i will have faith in my supposition, incongruent huh? i dnt know.. he kept on tellin me he loved he.. he loves me.. pro a notion came into me nah maybe it wasnt me whom he fell in love with.. it was her.. and dt wasnt me.. it hurts.. im having a hard time to doze off into dreamland nd smudge my pillow with tear stains because of this.. we didnt caused a rift.. we just ended what we had.. haha! im stupid! damn! i cant cease and persuade myself into reality that everything's used up. oh well, college will be in next to no time. many things might happen ahead.. we'll nver know.. mybe its my time to shine na pla!! haha! i wish!! i also grasp my mother's idea of me- going to USA.. in mississippi to be exact, after college.. i told myself ahead of time that i will be staying here for real.. and maybe get myself a good job after college.. khit botika girl lan.. bsta d2 aq sa phil. hhmmnn... then i realized nah drz no more reason to stay pa here after school if the reason is already gone. besides, my friends and i will surely be livin their own lives too.. when i come back.. we'd have a good chat, nd be apprised on each others' lives.. dba masku..?? fockerz n d rest..?? hhaaiii.. i sooo missss u guyz!! oh! wen i come back pla.. im suupphherr rich nah nun!! ehe! il be a tycoon nd i'll spend my money on wteverz!! haha!! dream on ces!! nwei, id reach dt aspiration.. i know i can! yeah!! dtz d spirit!! haha!!

*wish my tormented heart would one day be restored.. not by someone but with time.. =c

i look upon the moon and stars at 2:54 AM
0 stars were shining bright even without the moon