Tuesday, January 30, 2007
ehem! another version of trina's and friend's,, uhm? dont know what to call this.. hehe.. isa lan mssbi ko.. dalaga na so triii!!!! hehe..
la lan.. cute.. hehe..
ina! ina! ina! after 7 mos, we already met each other face to face.. hehe.. she's the best! love her tlga! ehem!
i need to visit a dermatologist this friday.. coz of that suckin thing! huhu!
nails last week..
nails this week..
holy rosary church.. with a classmate at a wedding hehe.. kita ko si g-ann dun and bf.. hmmnn,,
dissected suckin toxic frog with a pink pin.. hehe..
hmmnn..?? so anong latest??
>>project of the year.. we won the 2nd place.. epal na iwas bulate xe e!
>>had a bf for one nyt..haha!! friday night that is.. i can see eyebrows raising.. hehe.. trip lan un! swear! wla un.. good girl po ako..
>>sandovals are present last monday.. haha!
>>newly weds arvin and angel... congrats! haha!
>>
ces: may journalism dba?
pae: oo! ganun ung course ng pinsan ko tapos nag-masters yta xa un nga dapat course ko e..
ces: ay! oo! bagay mo un! tas mgwwork ka sa d buzzzz.. hehehe..
PE class: FOLKDANCE..
partners.. ces-pae
ces(gurl) pae(malanjot na guy) haha!!
>>love you sooo much pharma!! thanks for the vid and the effort and stuff.. princess!!! ur d bestest ever! lubbyusoomuch! wish i cud show u guys the video.. epal na youtube xe 10 mins lan..
>>i hate hap.. huhu! die hap! die!!
**ban pae's blog!! huhu! pero i admit, i was really a poor girl at that instant! i was crying talaga.. poor me.. huhu.. im kinda ok na.. thnx to people..
i look upon the moon and stars at 6:57 AM
0 stars were shining bright even without the moon
0 stars were shining bright even without the moon
Sunday, January 28, 2007
posting..
i lurve my friday and saturday night.. (apup left again..i know where he'll go.. hehe) anyway, atleast i had time for my pretty self.. and i guess i'll be religiously doin that every week..(i also said this once.. hehe) bsta.. i'll make kwento tomorrow..plus all the stuff that made me uh, bsta photos.. hehe.. coz human anatomy needs my attention.. argh!
messaged to me by a concerned someone on friendster.. hehe..
>>People come into your life for a reason, a season or a lifetime. When you know which one it is, you will know what to do for that person.
When someone is in your life for a REASON,it is usually to meet a need you have expressed. They have come to assist you through a difficulty, to provide you with guidance and support, to aid you physically, emotionally or spiritually. They may seem like a God send and they are. They are there for the reason you need them to be.Then, without any wrong doing on your part or at an inconvenient time, this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end.Sometimes they die. Sometimes they walk away. Sometimes they act up and force you to take a stand. What we must realize is that our need has been met, our desire fulfilled, their work is done. The prayer you sent up has been answered and now it is time to move on.
Some people come into your life for a SEASON, because your turn has come to share, grow or learn. They bring you an experience of peace or make you laugh. They may teach you somethingyou have never done. They usually giveyou an unbelievable amount of joy. Believe it, it is real. But only for a season.!
LIFETIME relationships teach you lifetime lessons, things you must build upon in order to have a solid emotional foundation. Your job is to accept the lesson, love the person and put what you have learned to use in all other relationships and areas of your life. It is said that love is blind but friendship is clairvoyant.
>>Thank you for being a part of my life,whether you were a reason, a season or a lifetime.
**waa! project of the year tomorrow.. nervous me. huhu!
messaged to me by a concerned someone on friendster.. hehe..
>>People come into your life for a reason, a season or a lifetime. When you know which one it is, you will know what to do for that person.
When someone is in your life for a REASON,it is usually to meet a need you have expressed. They have come to assist you through a difficulty, to provide you with guidance and support, to aid you physically, emotionally or spiritually. They may seem like a God send and they are. They are there for the reason you need them to be.Then, without any wrong doing on your part or at an inconvenient time, this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end.Sometimes they die. Sometimes they walk away. Sometimes they act up and force you to take a stand. What we must realize is that our need has been met, our desire fulfilled, their work is done. The prayer you sent up has been answered and now it is time to move on.
Some people come into your life for a SEASON, because your turn has come to share, grow or learn. They bring you an experience of peace or make you laugh. They may teach you somethingyou have never done. They usually giveyou an unbelievable amount of joy. Believe it, it is real. But only for a season.!
LIFETIME relationships teach you lifetime lessons, things you must build upon in order to have a solid emotional foundation. Your job is to accept the lesson, love the person and put what you have learned to use in all other relationships and areas of your life. It is said that love is blind but friendship is clairvoyant.
>>Thank you for being a part of my life,whether you were a reason, a season or a lifetime.
**waa! project of the year tomorrow.. nervous me. huhu!
i look upon the moon and stars at 1:44 AM
0 stars were shining bright even without the moon
0 stars were shining bright even without the moon
Friday, January 26, 2007
loff
>>got this article in glamour.. i forgot who wrote this one.. hehe.. i might be accused of plagiarism.. credits later.. promise! ehe.. anyway.. this one is for all who can touch on .. i know madami tayo.. tayo?? kayo.. hehe..
People may say no one ever died of a broken heart, but when you're suffering from one, it sure doesn't feel that way--at least initially. These suggestions may help you navigate the painfully troubled waters of a relationship that has ended.
Day 1
Instructions
STEP 1: Breathe. All you can do is survive this first and difficult day. Take one day at a time.
STEP 2: Give yourself permission to mourn. Call in sick at work, sleep all day, eat too much ice cream, sob.
STEP 3: Congratulate yourself for being human: It is only when you open yourself to love that your heart can break.
STEP 4: Develop and repeat a helpful mantra to get you through the initial shock and pain, such as "This too shall pass" or "I will survive."
Day 2
Instructions
STEP 1: Reach out to a close friend or family member. It helps to share your thoughts with others.
STEP 2: Watch a movie to distract yourself. Choose a comedy that has cheered you up in the past. Or watch a movie that's guaranteed to make you sob--it may surprise you how good that feels.
Week 1
Instructions
STEP 1: Force yourself to go out even if you are feeling despondent. Take yourself out for a cup of coffee or go on a long walk.
STEP 2: Express your emotions in a way that comes naturally. Write in a journal, paint, sculpt or play music.
STEP 3: Do daily cardiovascular exercise--the endorphins will give your spirits an immediate lift.
STEP 4: Resist the urge to call your ex. Instead, write a letter. Don't mail it.
STEP 5: Go out of town for the weekend to distance yourself from the temptation to call your ex. Visit an old friend or go back home to your roots. A change of environment does wonders for the spirit.
STEP 6: Put everything that reminds you of your ex in a box and seal it. Throw it away, donate it to charity or ask a friend to hold on to it indefinitely.
Week 2
Instructions
STEP 1: Surround yourself with friends. This may mean reaching out to people you fell out of touch with during the relationship.
STEP 2: Make lists to help you regain your confidence and identity: a list of your friends, of things you like, of what you want to accomplish in the next decade.
STEP 3: Spoil yourself: Get a new hairstyle, have a spa day or go shopping.
STEP 4: Resist the urge to call your ex.
Week 3
Instructions
STEP 1: Assess the experience. Have you learned anything about yourself? Does the experience make you more empathetic to others who've suffered a hardship?
STEP 2: Begin an activity that will fill your time, distract your mind and rebuild your confidence. Train for a marathon, take up yoga or learn a new language.
STEP 3: Resist the urge to call your ex.
STEP 4: Volunteer your time at a local homeless shelter, soup kitchen or tutoring center. It will take your mind off your own woes and keep your suffering in perspective.
Week 4
Instructions
STEP 1: Continue regular socializing and exercising. While socializing, though, make sure you don't depend on alcohol or drugs to dull the pain.
STEP 2: Call your ex if you feel it would be helpful. Resist if you merely want to say hurtful things.
STEP 3: Consider dating other people, but be wary of rebound relationships.
STEP 4: Understand that you will need to experience and process sadness, anger, guilt and fear to fully heal. Burying or ignoring these emotions will thwart the healing process. Write, cry, share the feelings with friends.
Months 3 to 6
Instructions
STEP 1: Force yourself to go on dates. You'll be surprised to discover that your heart can still flutter over someone. It's part of the healing process.
STEP 2: Consult a psychiatrist if you are experiencing symptoms of depression, such as lack of appetite, insomnia or too much sleeping, low self-esteem, and an inability to concentrate or carry out routine tasks. Ask a friend or physician to recommend one who is experienced in treating depression.
STEP 3: Remember that healing is a process that takes time. Expect waves of sadness, anger, guilt or fear even after you think you are over it. Give your heart time to heal.
One year and beyond
Instructions
STEP 1: Compartmentalize the experience in your memory: "My heart was broken once. It really hurt and I'm glad it's over."
STEP 2: Reach out to your ex if you want to re-establish a friendship. Do not harbor secret ambitions of winning him or her back. You'll only set yourself up for another heartbreak.
>>those stressed in red were already DONE by me.. those in purple, i shall meet in the future lalo na yung week 2 step 3.. hehe.. and those in orange are for JOE.. hehe..
>>"she wants me to be her friend nalang.. kahit la akong makitang reason para makipag-break xa sken.. anyway, that's her decision.. kahit na love na love mo yung isang tao, sometimes you have to set her free.. ces, you know how much i love her.."
-from a friend.. i didn't expect how the situation ruined that something.. i heard both sides, but i don't understand.. till now.. sana pala talaga dinamayan mo ko last night..
>>i grasp the thought that if you ever have broken your arm, you know what it looks like when the cast(tma ba?) is removed. It looks thinner, sometimes almost withered. It is covered with dead, discolored skin that has a pretty disgusting odor. It is weak from lack of use. In some cases, therapy may be necessary to restore full suppleness. And for a number of years afterward, the location of the break, though healed, may occasionally ache. When we have a broken bone, we are rushed to assistance so that further complications do not result. If left untreated, we might be left with mild to severe disability that can be more difficult to correct later. Depending upon the type and sternness of the break, bone fragments may damage surrounding tissue, cause bleeding, and other types of internal trauma that might lead to more serious conditions.(idea from human anatomy! skeletal system.. hehe)At no time are we told to 'just get over it.' We are given pain medication if necessary and are treated with some kind of adaptation to help us adjust to our daily lives until the bone is fully healed. The people in our lives treat us with extra caring and consideration.(ayta nman e.. hehe)You don't feel it necessary to hide the fact that your arm is broken. You know how long the cast should remain in place before removing it. The rate of healing can be checked by radiology(not sure) to make sure the cast isn't removed too soon. There is a specific treatment procedure and you are given instructions to follow. If the circumstances surrounding what caused the break result in anxiety, it is acknowledged as real.A broken heart can be mended if it is acknowledged as a real injury and not brushed off as something that will take care of itself in time if left alone. Those of us who have mended hearts have often had to develop our own treatment protocols, some more effective than others. And afterward, like a broken bone that has healed, there is always some residual evidence of the trauma. Even if what was broken ends up being stronger than it was before.Anyone who has suffered from a 'broken heart' will tell you that they would rather have a broken arm. It hurts less, heals faster and you get more help with it.
*mamaya na..*
People may say no one ever died of a broken heart, but when you're suffering from one, it sure doesn't feel that way--at least initially. These suggestions may help you navigate the painfully troubled waters of a relationship that has ended.
Day 1
Instructions
STEP 1: Breathe. All you can do is survive this first and difficult day. Take one day at a time.
STEP 2: Give yourself permission to mourn. Call in sick at work, sleep all day, eat too much ice cream, sob.
STEP 3: Congratulate yourself for being human: It is only when you open yourself to love that your heart can break.
STEP 4: Develop and repeat a helpful mantra to get you through the initial shock and pain, such as "This too shall pass" or "I will survive."
Day 2
Instructions
STEP 1: Reach out to a close friend or family member. It helps to share your thoughts with others.
STEP 2: Watch a movie to distract yourself. Choose a comedy that has cheered you up in the past. Or watch a movie that's guaranteed to make you sob--it may surprise you how good that feels.
Week 1
Instructions
STEP 1: Force yourself to go out even if you are feeling despondent. Take yourself out for a cup of coffee or go on a long walk.
STEP 2: Express your emotions in a way that comes naturally. Write in a journal, paint, sculpt or play music.
STEP 3: Do daily cardiovascular exercise--the endorphins will give your spirits an immediate lift.
STEP 4: Resist the urge to call your ex. Instead, write a letter. Don't mail it.
STEP 5: Go out of town for the weekend to distance yourself from the temptation to call your ex. Visit an old friend or go back home to your roots. A change of environment does wonders for the spirit.
STEP 6: Put everything that reminds you of your ex in a box and seal it. Throw it away, donate it to charity or ask a friend to hold on to it indefinitely.
Week 2
Instructions
STEP 1: Surround yourself with friends. This may mean reaching out to people you fell out of touch with during the relationship.
STEP 2: Make lists to help you regain your confidence and identity: a list of your friends, of things you like, of what you want to accomplish in the next decade.
STEP 3: Spoil yourself: Get a new hairstyle, have a spa day or go shopping.
STEP 4: Resist the urge to call your ex.
Week 3
Instructions
STEP 1: Assess the experience. Have you learned anything about yourself? Does the experience make you more empathetic to others who've suffered a hardship?
STEP 2: Begin an activity that will fill your time, distract your mind and rebuild your confidence. Train for a marathon, take up yoga or learn a new language.
STEP 3: Resist the urge to call your ex.
STEP 4: Volunteer your time at a local homeless shelter, soup kitchen or tutoring center. It will take your mind off your own woes and keep your suffering in perspective.
Week 4
Instructions
STEP 1: Continue regular socializing and exercising. While socializing, though, make sure you don't depend on alcohol or drugs to dull the pain.
STEP 2: Call your ex if you feel it would be helpful. Resist if you merely want to say hurtful things.
STEP 3: Consider dating other people, but be wary of rebound relationships.
STEP 4: Understand that you will need to experience and process sadness, anger, guilt and fear to fully heal. Burying or ignoring these emotions will thwart the healing process. Write, cry, share the feelings with friends.
Months 3 to 6
Instructions
STEP 1: Force yourself to go on dates. You'll be surprised to discover that your heart can still flutter over someone. It's part of the healing process.
STEP 2: Consult a psychiatrist if you are experiencing symptoms of depression, such as lack of appetite, insomnia or too much sleeping, low self-esteem, and an inability to concentrate or carry out routine tasks. Ask a friend or physician to recommend one who is experienced in treating depression.
STEP 3: Remember that healing is a process that takes time. Expect waves of sadness, anger, guilt or fear even after you think you are over it. Give your heart time to heal.
One year and beyond
Instructions
STEP 1: Compartmentalize the experience in your memory: "My heart was broken once. It really hurt and I'm glad it's over."
STEP 2: Reach out to your ex if you want to re-establish a friendship. Do not harbor secret ambitions of winning him or her back. You'll only set yourself up for another heartbreak.
>>those stressed in red were already DONE by me.. those in purple, i shall meet in the future lalo na yung week 2 step 3.. hehe.. and those in orange are for JOE.. hehe..
>>"she wants me to be her friend nalang.. kahit la akong makitang reason para makipag-break xa sken.. anyway, that's her decision.. kahit na love na love mo yung isang tao, sometimes you have to set her free.. ces, you know how much i love her.."
-from a friend.. i didn't expect how the situation ruined that something.. i heard both sides, but i don't understand.. till now.. sana pala talaga dinamayan mo ko last night..
>>i grasp the thought that if you ever have broken your arm, you know what it looks like when the cast(tma ba?) is removed. It looks thinner, sometimes almost withered. It is covered with dead, discolored skin that has a pretty disgusting odor. It is weak from lack of use. In some cases, therapy may be necessary to restore full suppleness. And for a number of years afterward, the location of the break, though healed, may occasionally ache. When we have a broken bone, we are rushed to assistance so that further complications do not result. If left untreated, we might be left with mild to severe disability that can be more difficult to correct later. Depending upon the type and sternness of the break, bone fragments may damage surrounding tissue, cause bleeding, and other types of internal trauma that might lead to more serious conditions.(idea from human anatomy! skeletal system.. hehe)At no time are we told to 'just get over it.' We are given pain medication if necessary and are treated with some kind of adaptation to help us adjust to our daily lives until the bone is fully healed. The people in our lives treat us with extra caring and consideration.(ayta nman e.. hehe)You don't feel it necessary to hide the fact that your arm is broken. You know how long the cast should remain in place before removing it. The rate of healing can be checked by radiology(not sure) to make sure the cast isn't removed too soon. There is a specific treatment procedure and you are given instructions to follow. If the circumstances surrounding what caused the break result in anxiety, it is acknowledged as real.A broken heart can be mended if it is acknowledged as a real injury and not brushed off as something that will take care of itself in time if left alone. Those of us who have mended hearts have often had to develop our own treatment protocols, some more effective than others. And afterward, like a broken bone that has healed, there is always some residual evidence of the trauma. Even if what was broken ends up being stronger than it was before.Anyone who has suffered from a 'broken heart' will tell you that they would rather have a broken arm. It hurts less, heals faster and you get more help with it.
*mamaya na..*
i look upon the moon and stars at 10:10 PM
0 stars were shining bright even without the moon
0 stars were shining bright even without the moon
Thursday, January 25, 2007
i love one tree hill.. and i remember a line told by lucas.. i quote, "it's not regretting the past and appreciating what we have now.. great memories.. great friends.." aryt!
i am crushing on this 20 yr old archi student of hello? hau.. haha! he is jasmine's cousin.. (ok ok.. si jasmine ung nadapa nung welcome freshmen.. dun nio xa kilala e.. pro, 1st runnr up sa ms. u.. hehe).. la lan.. share q lan.. saw him in flesh at last.. hehe.. share q lan..at isa siyang 'ocampo'.. hehe..
im not really in the mood today.. something crossed my mind and.. wala lang.. nahihirapan nakoo.. btw, i need your prayers.. i don't know why, pero i was chosen as one of the defenders of our thesis.. err, i mean, project of the year.. hehe.. ano ggwin ko dun? magpapacute?? hhaaii.. pls pray for me.. camp pnmn lhat ng klaban.. gudluck to us..
*sigh*
i am crushing on this 20 yr old archi student of hello? hau.. haha! he is jasmine's cousin.. (ok ok.. si jasmine ung nadapa nung welcome freshmen.. dun nio xa kilala e.. pro, 1st runnr up sa ms. u.. hehe).. la lan.. share q lan.. saw him in flesh at last.. hehe.. share q lan..at isa siyang 'ocampo'.. hehe..
im not really in the mood today.. something crossed my mind and.. wala lang.. nahihirapan nakoo.. btw, i need your prayers.. i don't know why, pero i was chosen as one of the defenders of our thesis.. err, i mean, project of the year.. hehe.. ano ggwin ko dun? magpapacute?? hhaaii.. pls pray for me.. camp pnmn lhat ng klaban.. gudluck to us..
*sigh*
i look upon the moon and stars at 5:09 AM
0 stars were shining bright even without the moon
0 stars were shining bright even without the moon
Wednesday, January 24, 2007
2dae..
yep.. frog dissection today.. 1 word.. "eew!" ginawa ko ng body spray ang lysol at lotion ang alcohol and i still feel the chill pag naaalala koo.. hehe.. i have pics!! i'm the only one in the class (i guess??) who got the chance of taking pictures.. haha! don't ask me why and how.. i just did! hehe.. and! special thanks to mitch, cath, jessica and denver for doin some stuffs for me.. like pinning the frog on its ventral position and more.. eeww.. hehe..
i have been thinkin a lot lately..
1st: i think may bago nnmng girl si apup.. wla pa dun ung mga nkkta ko sa fone nia..fyi.. apup is my dad.. hehe.. last night hindi xa umuwi.. like, umuwi na xa before 7am.. tas hinatid na nia q.. then! paguwi ko nnmn gling skul, wla nnmn ung car, meaning, wala xa.. then, i slept.. pggising ko, nanjan na ung car.. wala nman xa.. hhaaii.. gulo.. kya minsan, napapaisip ako, sa 3 wife ng dad ko, i wonder cno sa kanilang 3 ung love niya talaga, like pag tinanong xa, cno ang babalikan at babalikan nia sa 3?? mom ko kya?? err.. e even my mom, my husband na rin sa states.. obviously, i don't want a husband like my dad.. like hello?? ewan ko ba pano na-bear ng mom ko lahat.. disaster! hehe.. kaya no wonder ganyan brother ko.. na tinotolerate pa rin ni apup despite everything! weird.. ako lang talaga matino sa family nmen.. hehe.. true!
2nd: i need suggestions or whatevers on how to get rid of someone you don't really really like! except for the changing of number, which, accdg to ate karen, is a big no-no.. hehe.. nakooo nman xe! mark! die!!!
3rd: YFC.. waa!! i still can't decide over things.. i was given a really high postion.. that is a BIG responsibility.. that takes a LOT of time.. that might change me.. really.. and everythin.. what if hindi pa si kua tet ang maging future partner ko if ever?? patay.. he is d best ever e.. sigh.. hello?? buong school ang hawak koooo?? household nga nmen hirap nq e.. hirap pla kme.. buong school paa?? huhu.. well, life..
4th: malapit na 1st monthsary nmen ng stye ko.. and this suckin thing is still here.. huhu.. shall i wait?? ayookoo ng surgery,, hehe..
5th: i'm emotionally stressed.. di pwede dito ang it's all in the mind.. coz it's reality.. hehe.. pero, ok lan.. im lovin it..
like pae, i also went through series of psych tests.. and here are the results.. accdg to my tests:
-i am caring.. (am i ?? hehe)
-generous
-possessive
-helpful
-i make decisions with my heart
-passionate
-sympathetic
-friendly (di nga e..)
-do things for others
-man hater (na-ah!)
-has aggressive feelings
-demanding to someone's attention (haaah??)
-self-sacrificing
-has confused thoughts (true!)
-show others you're happy but you're not! (true!!)
-has initial actions for problems
-good listener
-loyal sa partner (really!!)
-don't wanna get married but wants to be attached (nde.. hehe)
-thinks of the future with someone..
-looks on the past and present..
-i should get to know the person first before trusting and befriending..
-not a war freak
-happy go lucky
-like mother teresa (ehem ehem! st. ces)
-doesn't fall easily in love
-likes a guy with a good sense of humor
-insecurity may be the cause of break-up in a relationship
-independent
-dreams big (eto lang naman dream ko e, -future husband's surname, Frances Shin F., RPh, M.D. -) haha! i want that MD on my name without studying for 6yrs or more! hehe..
*fhatz! ya! i remember na.. i guess?? hehe.. the negros thingy? ung alam nmen is sa naga city.. 2500 lahat.. with the transportation and registration plus the id and stufffs.. i want to go nga sana e! pero, i was thinkin.. vacation un.. we might be having our internship nun.. abangan nio ko! mercury drug or manson sa dau! near mcdo, near eiron's and gaux's place.. hehe.. or sa rob balibago.. wee!! may balak kbng sumama if evr?? xe gusto ko tlga.. hehe.. ung next xe nmen after bulacan, sa tarlac na.. gus2 ko sa malayo e.. hehe.. dpat nga bicol pa yn.. ehe.. un.. misu!
anhaba nito.. btw, thnx.. paeput.. for helping me out in my new template.. for being bossy and all.. =D i know it feels good.. ehe..
i have been thinkin a lot lately..
1st: i think may bago nnmng girl si apup.. wla pa dun ung mga nkkta ko sa fone nia..fyi.. apup is my dad.. hehe.. last night hindi xa umuwi.. like, umuwi na xa before 7am.. tas hinatid na nia q.. then! paguwi ko nnmn gling skul, wla nnmn ung car, meaning, wala xa.. then, i slept.. pggising ko, nanjan na ung car.. wala nman xa.. hhaaii.. gulo.. kya minsan, napapaisip ako, sa 3 wife ng dad ko, i wonder cno sa kanilang 3 ung love niya talaga, like pag tinanong xa, cno ang babalikan at babalikan nia sa 3?? mom ko kya?? err.. e even my mom, my husband na rin sa states.. obviously, i don't want a husband like my dad.. like hello?? ewan ko ba pano na-bear ng mom ko lahat.. disaster! hehe.. kaya no wonder ganyan brother ko.. na tinotolerate pa rin ni apup despite everything! weird.. ako lang talaga matino sa family nmen.. hehe.. true!
2nd: i need suggestions or whatevers on how to get rid of someone you don't really really like! except for the changing of number, which, accdg to ate karen, is a big no-no.. hehe.. nakooo nman xe! mark! die!!!
3rd: YFC.. waa!! i still can't decide over things.. i was given a really high postion.. that is a BIG responsibility.. that takes a LOT of time.. that might change me.. really.. and everythin.. what if hindi pa si kua tet ang maging future partner ko if ever?? patay.. he is d best ever e.. sigh.. hello?? buong school ang hawak koooo?? household nga nmen hirap nq e.. hirap pla kme.. buong school paa?? huhu.. well, life..
4th: malapit na 1st monthsary nmen ng stye ko.. and this suckin thing is still here.. huhu.. shall i wait?? ayookoo ng surgery,, hehe..
5th: i'm emotionally stressed.. di pwede dito ang it's all in the mind.. coz it's reality.. hehe.. pero, ok lan.. im lovin it..
like pae, i also went through series of psych tests.. and here are the results.. accdg to my tests:
-i am caring.. (am i ?? hehe)
-generous
-possessive
-helpful
-i make decisions with my heart
-passionate
-sympathetic
-friendly (di nga e..)
-do things for others
-man hater (na-ah!)
-has aggressive feelings
-demanding to someone's attention (haaah??)
-self-sacrificing
-has confused thoughts (true!)
-show others you're happy but you're not! (true!!)
-has initial actions for problems
-good listener
-loyal sa partner (really!!)
-don't wanna get married but wants to be attached (nde.. hehe)
-thinks of the future with someone..
-looks on the past and present..
-i should get to know the person first before trusting and befriending..
-not a war freak
-happy go lucky
-like mother teresa (ehem ehem! st. ces)
-doesn't fall easily in love
-likes a guy with a good sense of humor
-insecurity may be the cause of break-up in a relationship
-independent
-dreams big (eto lang naman dream ko e, -future husband's surname, Frances Shin F., RPh, M.D. -) haha! i want that MD on my name without studying for 6yrs or more! hehe..
*fhatz! ya! i remember na.. i guess?? hehe.. the negros thingy? ung alam nmen is sa naga city.. 2500 lahat.. with the transportation and registration plus the id and stufffs.. i want to go nga sana e! pero, i was thinkin.. vacation un.. we might be having our internship nun.. abangan nio ko! mercury drug or manson sa dau! near mcdo, near eiron's and gaux's place.. hehe.. or sa rob balibago.. wee!! may balak kbng sumama if evr?? xe gusto ko tlga.. hehe.. ung next xe nmen after bulacan, sa tarlac na.. gus2 ko sa malayo e.. hehe.. dpat nga bicol pa yn.. ehe.. un.. misu!
anhaba nito.. btw, thnx.. paeput.. for helping me out in my new template.. for being bossy and all.. =D i know it feels good.. ehe..
i look upon the moon and stars at 6:34 AM
0 stars were shining bright even without the moon
0 stars were shining bright even without the moon
Tuesday, January 23, 2007
him 4evr.
-i will still hold on to the words i said before- that i will always love you till my last heartbeat.. until the last breath that i take.. whatever happens.. whoever comes..
im so sick and tired of crying.. good thing my puffed eyes are not noticeable by others.. unlike stye.. =c
i look upon the moon and stars at 6:03 AM
0 stars were shining bright even without the moon
0 stars were shining bright even without the moon
Friday, January 19, 2007
2pix
pictures are uploaded na! it took me 17 hours!! yea! nwei, click here! to view..
thank you!! thank you!! thank you!!
*pharm1a
-gia, princess, jiannelle, cath, norvic, joar, manel, ley, joan, abby, angel, claire, clint, denver, i, irish, jabe, jet, kim, lorcille, nikki, paw, rechell, sarah, liz, kua mark and maam cae..
-thanks sa gifts and sa future gift.. hehe.. loveu loveu loveu sooo much guyz.. thnx for startin my college life a rockin' one! lubb ku kyong babatak!! suuppeerr!!! spxly malaya.. luvusoomuch!
*augustine06
-lou, audz, ate karen, g-ann, tere, mr. wil, chow, amio, budj, toot, don, kaezel, jad, dj, solo, xay, ti mux, mimi, pae, manas, aling (thnx sa msg.. super *touched* ako to the extremes!!), moi, apung ke, budi, ghari and timo..
-misyu augustine!! suppeerrr.. saLamat at di kyo nkalimot.. (ows?) kung wla lan ng-in4m for sure d rn kyo mggrit e.. hooo?? hehe,, ok lan.. love ko prn kyo.. with or without greetings.. ayta nman e.. hehe.. lubyuol!!
*YFC bros and sis
-ate norrine (salamat sa minu-minutong pag-grit! luvusomuch!), ton, calvin, zai, kua ebad, ate jade, pearl, roan, riel, gids, kua mackoi, tey, kua james, ate ellaine, kua tet and ate nica (xnxa sa mtgal na decision.. at super slamat sa lahat.. lubb dkang babatak!)
-thnx for filling a void in my life and thnx for inspiring me to serve Him better and for always bein my ate's and kua's and for always praying for my heart's desires and for simply bein there ALL THE TIME.. looveeyoouu sooo much!!
*my super friends (princess hours?? hehe..)
-kosi (salamat sa paggawa ng "ces mgnda day" thou everyday e ces mgnda day nmn.. hehe.. thnx for always bein der.. for always listenin and sharin a part of u to me..khit ayaw mong sumama sa concert.. mua! ayaw ko si peanut moo!! hehe.. lubbyu!), kati (i know you know all the things im thankful for coz of havin u arwnd.. superr!! salamat sa laging pakikinig, sa laging pagsama, sa trust mo sken, sa mga kabaliwan, sa lahat lahat lahat.. at nagsimula itong lahat ky sir paul.. o si fhatz?? cno ba gumwa ng sitting arrngmnt?? hehe.. bsta!! loveyou sooo much kati!!!), joe (nman! ang pilit na sumisira sa aking mgndang imahe... hehe.. salamat sa pag-istorbo mo sa mga classmates, friends, mom, ky bryan, at sa sis mo pra lan i-greet ako.. hehe. super thnx!!! super appreciated.. loveyou soooo much!!!!!!!) and kitoy (salamat din sa minu-minutong pag-greet at pagreremind sken sa bgay-bgay.. loveyousooo much kitoy!)
*masku
-jenny, eiron (salamat sa mkbagbag damdaming txt mo sken,, totoo lhat ng cnbi ko dun sa letter.. hehe,, i know i got ur back kya ill really think about that,,. loveyou eiron!), nor (prng d mq ngreet a?? hehe,,), joe, fhatz (ikw dn! gnreet mo bq ha??), jap (hmp!) and gox..
*more.
-him, ina, jhed, wallace (yup! i was shocked.. hehe..), arish, heidi, kim, soo, tine, ohana, kua erick, classmates and friends of joe, mom ni joe, bryan, ate jane, kua april, ate sa chowking, ate sa frio, friends ni tok and neighbors..
thnx for making my 17th birthday the greatest!! i heart you all..
>>>pictures.. pictures.. pictures..
uhh.. taken at selegna.. malagung dili..
those chocos were given to me by tok.. sweet neh?? kya lubb ke e..pae! un ung m&ms bar..ehe,,
bday celebration with masku.. we were playin killer killer?? o bullshit?? hehe.. whatev.. bsta, d ako natalo! ehe..
this was last night.. sa room.. la mgwa.. hehe.. so we played bullshit and 1-2-3 pass.. if you lost, either a figure or a line will be drawn on ur face using a balck eyeliner.. and guess what?? i got the most number of lost.. and so, i got the most drawn face.. nkpg-XO na cla, nkgwa ng 3rd eye, nkgwa ng stitch, ng balbas at bgote, ng x&y axis.. err.. yn lhat ng nsa muka ko last nyt.. at nkatulog ako ng gnun ang itsura q.. hehe..
yoohoo, yinee and gia.. adorable.. i luurrvveee these 3 qt things.. wishin to have moooore!!! i want a green, a purple and a yellow one..lhat naa!! pwede pa kyo humabol for gifts.. hehe..
thank you!! thank you!! thank you!!
*pharm1a
-gia, princess, jiannelle, cath, norvic, joar, manel, ley, joan, abby, angel, claire, clint, denver, i, irish, jabe, jet, kim, lorcille, nikki, paw, rechell, sarah, liz, kua mark and maam cae..
-thanks sa gifts and sa future gift.. hehe.. loveu loveu loveu sooo much guyz.. thnx for startin my college life a rockin' one! lubb ku kyong babatak!! suuppeerr!!! spxly malaya.. luvusoomuch!
*augustine06
-lou, audz, ate karen, g-ann, tere, mr. wil, chow, amio, budj, toot, don, kaezel, jad, dj, solo, xay, ti mux, mimi, pae, manas, aling (thnx sa msg.. super *touched* ako to the extremes!!), moi, apung ke, budi, ghari and timo..
-misyu augustine!! suppeerrr.. saLamat at di kyo nkalimot.. (ows?) kung wla lan ng-in4m for sure d rn kyo mggrit e.. hooo?? hehe,, ok lan.. love ko prn kyo.. with or without greetings.. ayta nman e.. hehe.. lubyuol!!
*YFC bros and sis
-ate norrine (salamat sa minu-minutong pag-grit! luvusomuch!), ton, calvin, zai, kua ebad, ate jade, pearl, roan, riel, gids, kua mackoi, tey, kua james, ate ellaine, kua tet and ate nica (xnxa sa mtgal na decision.. at super slamat sa lahat.. lubb dkang babatak!)
-thnx for filling a void in my life and thnx for inspiring me to serve Him better and for always bein my ate's and kua's and for always praying for my heart's desires and for simply bein there ALL THE TIME.. looveeyoouu sooo much!!
*my super friends (princess hours?? hehe..)
-kosi (salamat sa paggawa ng "ces mgnda day" thou everyday e ces mgnda day nmn.. hehe.. thnx for always bein der.. for always listenin and sharin a part of u to me..khit ayaw mong sumama sa concert.. mua! ayaw ko si peanut moo!! hehe.. lubbyu!), kati (i know you know all the things im thankful for coz of havin u arwnd.. superr!! salamat sa laging pakikinig, sa laging pagsama, sa trust mo sken, sa mga kabaliwan, sa lahat lahat lahat.. at nagsimula itong lahat ky sir paul.. o si fhatz?? cno ba gumwa ng sitting arrngmnt?? hehe.. bsta!! loveyou sooo much kati!!!), joe (nman! ang pilit na sumisira sa aking mgndang imahe... hehe.. salamat sa pag-istorbo mo sa mga classmates, friends, mom, ky bryan, at sa sis mo pra lan i-greet ako.. hehe. super thnx!!! super appreciated.. loveyou soooo much!!!!!!!) and kitoy (salamat din sa minu-minutong pag-greet at pagreremind sken sa bgay-bgay.. loveyousooo much kitoy!)
*masku
-jenny, eiron (salamat sa mkbagbag damdaming txt mo sken,, totoo lhat ng cnbi ko dun sa letter.. hehe,, i know i got ur back kya ill really think about that,,. loveyou eiron!), nor (prng d mq ngreet a?? hehe,,), joe, fhatz (ikw dn! gnreet mo bq ha??), jap (hmp!) and gox..
*more.
-him, ina, jhed, wallace (yup! i was shocked.. hehe..), arish, heidi, kim, soo, tine, ohana, kua erick, classmates and friends of joe, mom ni joe, bryan, ate jane, kua april, ate sa chowking, ate sa frio, friends ni tok and neighbors..
thnx for making my 17th birthday the greatest!! i heart you all..
>>>pictures.. pictures.. pictures..
uhh.. taken at selegna.. malagung dili..
those chocos were given to me by tok.. sweet neh?? kya lubb ke e..pae! un ung m&ms bar..ehe,,
bday celebration with masku.. we were playin killer killer?? o bullshit?? hehe.. whatev.. bsta, d ako natalo! ehe..
this was last night.. sa room.. la mgwa.. hehe.. so we played bullshit and 1-2-3 pass.. if you lost, either a figure or a line will be drawn on ur face using a balck eyeliner.. and guess what?? i got the most number of lost.. and so, i got the most drawn face.. nkpg-XO na cla, nkgwa ng 3rd eye, nkgwa ng stitch, ng balbas at bgote, ng x&y axis.. err.. yn lhat ng nsa muka ko last nyt.. at nkatulog ako ng gnun ang itsura q.. hehe..
yoohoo, yinee and gia.. adorable.. i luurrvveee these 3 qt things.. wishin to have moooore!!! i want a green, a purple and a yellow one..lhat naa!! pwede pa kyo humabol for gifts.. hehe..
i look upon the moon and stars at 10:04 PM
0 stars were shining bright even without the moon
0 stars were shining bright even without the moon
1pixx
birthday celebrated with our household at go nuts..
G.A. at the struggle afterwards..
sa house afterwards with jap.. and kati.. and gids..
studio pic with pharma at selegna..
birthday celebrated with pharma..
i look upon the moon and stars at 9:26 PM
0 stars were shining bright even without the moon
0 stars were shining bright even without the moon
Wednesday, January 17, 2007
before anything else.. solo!! this may be of little help on ur innocence.. ehe.. click here! (nag-susuggest lan po..) ehe..
been having million thoughts lately.. yfc, him, her, classmate stuffs, family stuffs, hap & cf (thank God im done with my reports here..) debut?? haha!! (i already made a list of the roses, candles and treasures! ehe.. excited?) anyway, back to reality.. how i wish i have that "chasing powers of joe.. i mean, you see her like that, as if she doesn't care on stuffs and just let it all hang there pero, see, she's capable of that "chasing" thing.. (though it's understood that people do get tired of some things).. kala ko di ako iiyak.. kala ko NR ako.. kala ko wala lang, then after, ok.. i was entirely wrong! how i wish crying could heal the pain.. why do i tend to keep my feelings? why not spoil? sinabihan na nga ako about that e.. in d end, i suffer.. now i can see again how weak i can be at times.. sigh.. and you know, it's really true that you see the worth of something once it's already gone and what's left are only memories..i would like to hear those words.. those words.. those words.. those words.. and it hurts to know that for somebody, everything was nothing.. i guess i'll be reading more of joshua harris's.. sigh..
you told me that you'll always be there whenever i'll be needin you.. what if i tell you that i need you..always.. i guess it's too late now.. take care of that piece of my heart that you own.. never will i take that back.. hhaaii.. life goes on cees!! argh!
been having million thoughts lately.. yfc, him, her, classmate stuffs, family stuffs, hap & cf (thank God im done with my reports here..) debut?? haha!! (i already made a list of the roses, candles and treasures! ehe.. excited?) anyway, back to reality.. how i wish i have that "chasing powers of joe.. i mean, you see her like that, as if she doesn't care on stuffs and just let it all hang there pero, see, she's capable of that "chasing" thing.. (though it's understood that people do get tired of some things).. kala ko di ako iiyak.. kala ko NR ako.. kala ko wala lang, then after, ok.. i was entirely wrong! how i wish crying could heal the pain.. why do i tend to keep my feelings? why not spoil? sinabihan na nga ako about that e.. in d end, i suffer.. now i can see again how weak i can be at times.. sigh.. and you know, it's really true that you see the worth of something once it's already gone and what's left are only memories..i would like to hear those words.. those words.. those words.. those words.. and it hurts to know that for somebody, everything was nothing.. i guess i'll be reading more of joshua harris's.. sigh..
you told me that you'll always be there whenever i'll be needin you.. what if i tell you that i need you..always.. i guess it's too late now.. take care of that piece of my heart that you own.. never will i take that back.. hhaaii.. life goes on cees!! argh!
i look upon the moon and stars at 10:15 AM
0 stars were shining bright even without the moon
0 stars were shining bright even without the moon
Monday, January 15, 2007
pixx.. sum..
APPETIZER.. ehe.. photos are already transferred.. some uploaded.. some not yet.. nwei, here's a view of "some"..
ghari as part of the 18 candles.. read that right! 18 candles!!
pre-birthday celebration with masku.. d best ever!
weird "motor girls"??? hehe..
i was wishin real hard,, wanna know? stye disappearance.. huhu!
freaks in my room..my room.. my room..
>>i'll inform you guys when all is done na.. i told you kasi, toxic talaga ko lately.. btw, MANALS!! happy "real" 18th birthday!!! ehe.. loveyou biatch! mua!
ghari as part of the 18 candles.. read that right! 18 candles!!
pre-birthday celebration with masku.. d best ever!
weird "motor girls"??? hehe..
i was wishin real hard,, wanna know? stye disappearance.. huhu!
freaks in my room..my room.. my room.. >>i'll inform you guys when all is done na.. i told you kasi, toxic talaga ko lately.. btw, MANALS!! happy "real" 18th birthday!!! ehe.. loveyou biatch! mua!
i look upon the moon and stars at 6:53 AM
0 stars were shining bright even without the moon
0 stars were shining bright even without the moon
Saturday, January 13, 2007
ln..
joe, havnt uploaded the pixx.. issma ko nlan ung today's event.. ehe.. last nyt was uber fun.. and i saw some of the freaks i seldom see during odd occasions.. too bad agad umuwi ung iba.. ehem! *solo* ehem! *mr wil*.. and it was then and there.. like this: fhatz gave me the candle, and i: ano to?? fhatz: 18 candles gaga! whoa whoa whoa! haha! then and there.. plus the incident of papee and rr's.. haha! ehe.. twas a very one-off experience.. ehe.. that's the fun part.. so here comes the unlikeable part.. we were about to go home when i heard the song 'let me be the one..' la lan. share ko lan.. kakalungkot.. and the incident na nangyari sa isa jan.. i soo feel bad.. we, actually.. sana i could talk to you ASAP.. sigh..
hhmnn.. everytime pamela questions me about missing somebody, i'd say.. 'hndi'.. and 'di xe'.. eventhough she would respond to a very disbelieving "oooowwwsss".. but in actual fact, i really do miss that sumbody.. truly.. and.. i still don't know what to do.. i know that not everything lasts forever.. there are words left unsaid, and i was drowing in them.. but, i just can't swim my way out.. *so sad*
hhmnn.. everytime pamela questions me about missing somebody, i'd say.. 'hndi'.. and 'di xe'.. eventhough she would respond to a very disbelieving "oooowwwsss".. but in actual fact, i really do miss that sumbody.. truly.. and.. i still don't know what to do.. i know that not everything lasts forever.. there are words left unsaid, and i was drowing in them.. but, i just can't swim my way out.. *so sad*
i look upon the moon and stars at 8:29 PM
0 stars were shining bright even without the moon
0 stars were shining bright even without the moon
Friday, January 12, 2007
frgvns.
-"waiting for God's timing requires trusting in His goodness and wisdom.. We develop patience as we trust that God denies what we think is good only because He has something better for us-both now and in the future.."
-"pursuing intimacy without commitment is like going mountain climbing with a partner who, once halfway up the mountain face, isn't sure he or she wants to hold the rope.."
-"but though we might be surprised by the contents of our hearts, God is not.. He understands how easily it can be swayed in the wrong direction.."
-"we have to practice now what we want to be in the future.. let's look at a few areas we can prepare for while we're still single.."
-"we need to concentrate not only on finding the right person but, more important, on becoming the right person.."
-excerpts from the book "i kissed dating goodbye" by Joshua Harris.. hhmmnn.. extremely recommended!!!! para sa mga "gagad".. ehe.. peace! i'm all over it! well, my birthday is real near.. share ko lan.. ehe..
* i hope and i pray that somewhere in your heart i'll always stay.."
-without you..
-"pursuing intimacy without commitment is like going mountain climbing with a partner who, once halfway up the mountain face, isn't sure he or she wants to hold the rope.."
-"but though we might be surprised by the contents of our hearts, God is not.. He understands how easily it can be swayed in the wrong direction.."
-"we have to practice now what we want to be in the future.. let's look at a few areas we can prepare for while we're still single.."
-"we need to concentrate not only on finding the right person but, more important, on becoming the right person.."
-excerpts from the book "i kissed dating goodbye" by Joshua Harris.. hhmmnn.. extremely recommended!!!! para sa mga "gagad".. ehe.. peace! i'm all over it! well, my birthday is real near.. share ko lan.. ehe..
* i hope and i pray that somewhere in your heart i'll always stay.."
-without you..
i look upon the moon and stars at 9:15 PM
0 stars were shining bright even without the moon
0 stars were shining bright even without the moon
Thursday, January 11, 2007
...
hey! sorry ah! really.. as much as i would like to talk to you about some f*cked up things i think this is not just the perfect time coz i'm trying to prioritize more stuffs way important than this.. ya, i understand you and some stuffs like that but i think i deserve an explanation.. i don't need it now.. whenever.. but not now.. hhaaii.. sorry sorry sorry.. sorry.. yea.. sorry.. i'm just a txt away..
public apology to solo.. sorry sorry.. nka-sun xe q knina e.. ehe.. last na rin nman to.. ehe.. text nlan ulet kyo next time may balak kyong pumunta.. ehe.. tas hatid nio ulet aq.. wiweet! khit d ka sumama.. ehe.. sorry.. wee..
joan! alang maglalalalalalsiiing!!!! nq! ako magbabantay.. i'm a changed gurl now.. ehe.. ??????????????????? i should be a good model at good influence.. pro.. bsta alang magsusumbong a! join ako! hahaha!! quiet quiet.. weee..
fhatz.. 5pm here sa house meeting place.. invite pa pala kayo.. haha!! bat prng ako yta mei bertdei?? ehe..
err!! 5pm.. and i have to go back to school.. and oh! fhatz, joe and d rest na dapat mkabasa nito.. don't you dare forget about my birthday celebration with you guys this sunday.. aryt??
ta-ta!
2 yrs is long and you'll surely be missed.. sigh.. sorry for not bein me the way you want me to be.. sorry.. waa!!!! don't leave! huhu..
public apology to solo.. sorry sorry.. nka-sun xe q knina e.. ehe.. last na rin nman to.. ehe.. text nlan ulet kyo next time may balak kyong pumunta.. ehe.. tas hatid nio ulet aq.. wiweet! khit d ka sumama.. ehe.. sorry.. wee..
joan! alang maglalalalalalsiiing!!!! nq! ako magbabantay.. i'm a changed gurl now.. ehe.. ??????????????????? i should be a good model at good influence.. pro.. bsta alang magsusumbong a! join ako! hahaha!! quiet quiet.. weee..
fhatz.. 5pm here sa house meeting place.. invite pa pala kayo.. haha!! bat prng ako yta mei bertdei?? ehe..
err!! 5pm.. and i have to go back to school.. and oh! fhatz, joe and d rest na dapat mkabasa nito.. don't you dare forget about my birthday celebration with you guys this sunday.. aryt??
ta-ta!
2 yrs is long and you'll surely be missed.. sigh.. sorry for not bein me the way you want me to be.. sorry.. waa!!!! don't leave! huhu..
i look upon the moon and stars at 12:48 AM
0 stars were shining bright even without the moon
0 stars were shining bright even without the moon
Tuesday, January 09, 2007
ouch.
it sounds a lot like for me.. everything was ouch.. i'm so confused.. damn! i hate this sucking feeling! maybe i was really really wrong.. to think na 10 pa ngayon.. sigh..
>>special thanks to MR. WIL for cheering me up.. ehe.. i owe you one..
>>guyz.. 5pm on saturday.. jan 13.. manal's place.. bday celebration.. she's turning 18.. punta kyo..
this time, i'll put a meaning on this red colored font.. sorry joe..
>> fhatz, joe, pae, GIA, rosiel, mr wil, solo, princess, GAUX, kati, ate nica and others who served as my 'kakampis' and 'comedians?' or whatev.. thanks much you guys.. ehe.. much appreciated.. from the bottom of my broken? heart.. ehe.. andrama.. bsta! thnx a lot!
>> i was given another 'somethin' to think about.. wwaaaaaa!!! super thanks for the trust and everything kasi i know that it's a BIG responsibility yet you entrusted me with that.. waa!! signs again.. and hopin that I could get His grace for this.. waa!! waa!! waa!! YFC-AUF, are you ready?? haha!! waaa!! waa!! waa!!!
>>special thanks to MR. WIL for cheering me up.. ehe.. i owe you one..
>>guyz.. 5pm on saturday.. jan 13.. manal's place.. bday celebration.. she's turning 18.. punta kyo..
this time, i'll put a meaning on this red colored font.. sorry joe..
>> fhatz, joe, pae, GIA, rosiel, mr wil, solo, princess, GAUX, kati, ate nica and others who served as my 'kakampis' and 'comedians?' or whatev.. thanks much you guys.. ehe.. much appreciated.. from the bottom of my broken? heart.. ehe.. andrama.. bsta! thnx a lot!
>> i was given another 'somethin' to think about.. wwaaaaaa!!! super thanks for the trust and everything kasi i know that it's a BIG responsibility yet you entrusted me with that.. waa!! signs again.. and hopin that I could get His grace for this.. waa!! waa!! waa!! YFC-AUF, are you ready?? haha!! waaa!! waa!! waa!!!
i look upon the moon and stars at 6:48 PM
0 stars were shining bright even without the moon
0 stars were shining bright even without the moon
Monday, January 08, 2007
im down..
what does pride have that makes it so hard to lessen for someone who has it..
-you always don't want to be the first to do the step to be with someone..
-you always try to hide your feelings..
-you don't want others to know that your hurt..
-you're afraid of letting someone know he's/she's special..
-you're afraid of losing someone but also afraid to show it..
-you're afraid to love someone whom you think can't love you back..
-you're so aware of what others think that you can't do what you want..
-you're not happy..
-and in the end, you lose everything without even trying to have it..
*'nuff said..
-i don't get it! i don't understand! this soo suxx.. why is that so?? it's really tough when people start to leave you hangin'.. it's even tougher to pretend that you don't mind.. sigh..
argh! shit! fcuk! sometimes, even if everything felt so perfect, it was just meant to teach you.. not to stay forever.. God knows everything.. and I leave it all up to Him.. so, no fret.. that's just it! dumped..
-you always don't want to be the first to do the step to be with someone..
-you always try to hide your feelings..
-you don't want others to know that your hurt..
-you're afraid of letting someone know he's/she's special..
-you're afraid of losing someone but also afraid to show it..
-you're afraid to love someone whom you think can't love you back..
-you're so aware of what others think that you can't do what you want..
-you're not happy..
-and in the end, you lose everything without even trying to have it..
*'nuff said..
-i don't get it! i don't understand! this soo suxx.. why is that so?? it's really tough when people start to leave you hangin'.. it's even tougher to pretend that you don't mind.. sigh..
argh! shit! fcuk! sometimes, even if everything felt so perfect, it was just meant to teach you.. not to stay forever.. God knows everything.. and I leave it all up to Him.. so, no fret.. that's just it! dumped..
i look upon the moon and stars at 4:22 AM
0 stars were shining bright even without the moon
0 stars were shining bright even without the moon
Saturday, January 06, 2007
#changed..
ok.. thnx to techaccess for fixing this shit.. another waste of time.. but i do like it! so.. i guess?? photoblogging?? new year pictures..
side ng house.. i dunno.. bakit may ganitong shot..
fireworks.. i lurve this.. fancy glitter like whatev..
taken hours ago.. see my stye?? left eye blind! stressed..
fountain.. behind that fountain, xtian and carlo is to be found..=D
this was, uhh?? new year's celebration.. i was soo proud of myself coz i don't have anything on my face.. i really mean, nothing! even powder.. i have nothing coz my annoying stye hurts and i don't want it to be infected more or whatev.. hhmmnn.. still looking gorgeous.. hahahaha!! kumontra patay! i was in a pink polkadot headband.. hoping that this year would bring me luck.. haha! asa! i was called pink monster when we we're in the supermarket coz of my pink cap, pink shades, pink shirt and.. thats it! ehe.. stalker? i was in the car then at nakita pa rin ako ng epal na un.. hmp! whatever!
i'm planning to change my number.. argh! 2 reasons.. 1st, to get rid of that sucking ****boi mark.. 2nd, to get rid of uuhhmm.. those group messages coming from unknown people.. ehemm.. pae! i know you know what i'm talking about.. haha!! but, this sim, it has memories.. huu.. and, i have two people behind me with almost the same number.. ehe.. and i don't know if i'll inform him about this.. like, giving him my new number.. hhaaiii.. rude me.. pero diba, para wala na talagang reason magparamdam.. atleast it's valid.. get me? sigh..
"i only want you happy, even if it's not with me.."
side ng house.. i dunno.. bakit may ganitong shot..
fireworks.. i lurve this.. fancy glitter like whatev..
taken hours ago.. see my stye?? left eye blind! stressed..
fountain.. behind that fountain, xtian and carlo is to be found..=D
this was, uhh?? new year's celebration.. i was soo proud of myself coz i don't have anything on my face.. i really mean, nothing! even powder.. i have nothing coz my annoying stye hurts and i don't want it to be infected more or whatev.. hhmmnn.. still looking gorgeous.. hahahaha!! kumontra patay! i was in a pink polkadot headband.. hoping that this year would bring me luck.. haha! asa! i was called pink monster when we we're in the supermarket coz of my pink cap, pink shades, pink shirt and.. thats it! ehe.. stalker? i was in the car then at nakita pa rin ako ng epal na un.. hmp! whatever!i'm planning to change my number.. argh! 2 reasons.. 1st, to get rid of that sucking ****boi mark.. 2nd, to get rid of uuhhmm.. those group messages coming from unknown people.. ehemm.. pae! i know you know what i'm talking about.. haha!! but, this sim, it has memories.. huu.. and, i have two people behind me with almost the same number.. ehe.. and i don't know if i'll inform him about this.. like, giving him my new number.. hhaaiii.. rude me.. pero diba, para wala na talagang reason magparamdam.. atleast it's valid.. get me? sigh..
"i only want you happy, even if it's not with me.."
i look upon the moon and stars at 6:02 AM
0 stars were shining bright even without the moon
0 stars were shining bright even without the moon
Thursday, January 04, 2007
back
i missed blogging.. uber!
-die stye!! die!! huhu.. i've suffered enough!! and i can't wait to be the 'ces' i want to be.. ehe.. like hello?? i greeted the year with a stye?? argh! i'll post my pic soon.. =D when the suckin computer is fixed na.. don't worry it's not grave.. it's just soo suckin annoying!! like, sooo much!! at uunahan ko na kayo.. hindi po ako nanilip!! di na ako maninilip ulit.. =D long story.. ehe..
-to free yourself from being the victim of lost "love", give yourself the time to unequivocally get to know and appreciate someone, allowing love to happen in it's own due course. Do not impulsively rush into a state of feeling in love. Seriously consider all of the factors that ensure a real and lasting love. Give this feeling time to develop. Only then, can you truly know that you are in love.
*hhmmnn.. onga! wag excited!! ehem!
-m-a-r-k!! i have 8 words for you!! I HATE YOU AND I DON'T LIKE YOU!! ikw nga!! *in-add na kta at sna mkta mo 'to at mabasa!* get the hell out of me freak!! huhu.. leave!! am i too rude?? well, bein in denial suxx so live a life! ****boi! *sigh*
-another mark.. ehe.. kua mark, scary pag my hangover.. jiguja na xe.. wehe.. =D
-dates to look ahead:
*jan 12- she's leaving.. so suxx.. as if my mggwa aq..??
*jan 8- upper household.. i miss my yfc freaks... =D
*jan 10- GA with the rest of yfcs.. nothin spexal.. uuwi lang ng late.. ehe..
*jan 14- pre-bday celebration with masku sa bicentennial.. hell yeah! can't wait!
*jan 19- buhbye sweet sixteen, hello life!
*jan 26- household with partner and members.. =D wiweet!
*jan 28- club praise.. same place.. same time.. different new people.. =D
-wee!! A-N-A-T-O-M-Y suxx!! my grades are run-of-the-mill.. fine.. but im not gratified.. hhaaii.. i need more vigor to thrive and survive.. woo..
-skul-sleep-study-tv-study-sleep-skul.. whatta boring routine!! i hate it! study na wlang pumapasok sa utak koo.. waa!! next week, iba na yan.. skul-sleep-net-tv-study?-sleep-skul.. haaaaii.. life.. 2007, please make my life worth living..
-im experiencing agony yesterday due to my very painful abdominopelvic?? not sure.. ehe.. shit! it soo hurts like hell!! anyway, thanks to alaxan for calming me.. how i wish alaxan could also cure my other pain.. then i'll be buying lots! lots! and lots of it!
cheerio!
-die stye!! die!! huhu.. i've suffered enough!! and i can't wait to be the 'ces' i want to be.. ehe.. like hello?? i greeted the year with a stye?? argh! i'll post my pic soon.. =D when the suckin computer is fixed na.. don't worry it's not grave.. it's just soo suckin annoying!! like, sooo much!! at uunahan ko na kayo.. hindi po ako nanilip!! di na ako maninilip ulit.. =D long story.. ehe..
-to free yourself from being the victim of lost "love", give yourself the time to unequivocally get to know and appreciate someone, allowing love to happen in it's own due course. Do not impulsively rush into a state of feeling in love. Seriously consider all of the factors that ensure a real and lasting love. Give this feeling time to develop. Only then, can you truly know that you are in love.
*hhmmnn.. onga! wag excited!! ehem!
-m-a-r-k!! i have 8 words for you!! I HATE YOU AND I DON'T LIKE YOU!! ikw nga!! *in-add na kta at sna mkta mo 'to at mabasa!* get the hell out of me freak!! huhu.. leave!! am i too rude?? well, bein in denial suxx so live a life! ****boi! *sigh*
-another mark.. ehe.. kua mark, scary pag my hangover.. jiguja na xe.. wehe.. =D
-dates to look ahead:
*jan 12- she's leaving.. so suxx.. as if my mggwa aq..??
*jan 8- upper household.. i miss my yfc freaks... =D
*jan 10- GA with the rest of yfcs.. nothin spexal.. uuwi lang ng late.. ehe..
*jan 14- pre-bday celebration with masku sa bicentennial.. hell yeah! can't wait!
*jan 19- buhbye sweet sixteen, hello life!
*jan 26- household with partner and members.. =D wiweet!
*jan 28- club praise.. same place.. same time.. different new people.. =D
-wee!! A-N-A-T-O-M-Y suxx!! my grades are run-of-the-mill.. fine.. but im not gratified.. hhaaii.. i need more vigor to thrive and survive.. woo..
-skul-sleep-study-tv-study-sleep-skul.. whatta boring routine!! i hate it! study na wlang pumapasok sa utak koo.. waa!! next week, iba na yan.. skul-sleep-net-tv-study?-sleep-skul.. haaaaii.. life.. 2007, please make my life worth living..
-im experiencing agony yesterday due to my very painful abdominopelvic?? not sure.. ehe.. shit! it soo hurts like hell!! anyway, thanks to alaxan for calming me.. how i wish alaxan could also cure my other pain.. then i'll be buying lots! lots! and lots of it!
cheerio!
i look upon the moon and stars at 9:18 PM
0 stars were shining bright even without the moon
0 stars were shining bright even without the moon
Tuesday, January 02, 2007
nonsense shit..
16 DAYS TO GO!!!!!!!!!
gift ko.. =D
"i don't know why we all hang on to something we know we're better off letting go.. it's like we're scared to lose what we don't even really have.. some of us say we'd rather have that something than absolutely nothing.. but the truth is: to have it halfway is harder than not having it at all.."
i look upon the moon and stars at 6:54 PM
0 stars were shining bright even without the moon
0 stars were shining bright even without the moon
